Voyeuristic Tendencies...

late at night...

2010-12-05T02:54:00.005+08:00

somehow tonight i remembered that i have two other sites that documented my life before facebook. it's too noisy there now.

i wonder how many people remember this little blog of mine. alot has transpired in my long absence from my here. too many to detail but i just got back from another trip to the middle east. this time to amman and jerusalem. i think i'll give the middle east a miss for quite some time now.

let's see how this goes. i don't really like to publicise my thoughts but perhaps i should give this another try...

~ sunset over jerusalem ~

and the stars refused to shine...

2009-06-29T23:30:00.003+08:00

it was supposed to be the darkest of nights...

i can't seem to upload any pictures here anymore!!!

{this was supposed to be my customary one photo for the month entry but i can't seem to upload any photos... urgh... the photo is up on my facebook account though...}

anyways... so it is the end of june... my new timetable stands at wednesdays being my quite a bad day... mondays on the other hand is an absolute dream... although it leaves me vulnerable for other duties... oh well... until a better time comes... this will have to do...

going away tomorrow for four days... with impending deployment... this has become quite the chore...

far, far away...

2009-05-28T23:34:00.001+08:00

we only come out at nite...

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from time to time

011001

2009-03-31T23:28:00.003+08:00

my art teachers;
for letting me dream...

my best friend;
who is my worst critique...

my father;
for invaluable assistance and finance...

and all those who believed...
even when i didn't...

20:08:51

when i finished my 'a' level project, i wrote a thank you note...
it resonates until now...

the skies over...

2009-02-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

soppeng

in a while... for a while

2009-01-30T11:27:00.004+08:00

as one day blends into another, there is a restlessness;
it grows within and gets harder to hold back
i seek a guidance and i yearn for haste

another one...

2008-12-31T19:26:00.001+08:00

seemingly quiet with spare uncertainty
one of transition and things yet to see
of silent happiness through transient echoes
reverberations that last as far as it goes
not quite shining but not without the gleam
better than not once we seek within
there is plenty more to seek and distance to cover
but here with me we hold each other
of things that lost and affirmations that stand
through tests of time one hand in hand
a gratitude of belief wherever it is possible
as we watch this life and this story unfurl

'never leave a piece of youth'
to echoes, silence, patience and grace
we welcome thee

something old, something new...

2008-11-27T23:13:00.003+08:00

bobok

in the sun...

2008-10-18T00:46:00.004+08:00

~1110~

some time...

2008-09-24T01:02:00.002+08:00

yeah... the set should be coming...

how do i put this...

2008-09-07T23:45:00.001+08:00

next on...

2008-08-27T01:38:00.002+08:00

the point is?

2008-08-16T16:01:00.002+08:00

article about being 'the least favourite child' by nur dianah suhaimi and my two cents worth...

i don't think i want to comment on everything she wrote... i'll avoid the stereotyping issue and how cynical and not forward looking it is... as an article for national day, it's quite a whimsical rant... but i'll touch on something quite close to my heart...

But one thing these stories had in common was that they all revolved around the Police Academy in Thomson. As I got older, it puzzled me why my Chinese friends constantly referred to NS as 'army'. In my family and among my Malay friends, being enlisted in the army was like hitting the jackpot. The majority served in the police force because, as is known, the Government was not comfortable with Malay Muslims serving in the army. But there are more of them now.

hitting the jackpot? she has got to be kidding me... assuming by 'hitting the jackpot', she meant a good thing... i know plenty of people (chinese included) who would rather serve in the SPF or SCDF for their national service... she is obviously as she stated clueless about ns... i thank my lucky stars every day that i didn't have to go to tekong for my ns... not because i won't defend the country... i will... i do it regularly infact... but my concept of defence takes on a much wider scope than wielding a SAR 21 ... i carry different things... damn... i hear more people whine about their time in the army than any other departments of national service... yeah sure, we all reminisce the good old times... but seriously... the question you would have to ask is... "did you think that your time in the national service was a waste of time of what is essentially the most potentially productive period of your youth where you could be out there attaining higher forms of education or starting to make your way in the working world?"... and see what kind of answers you get... and i am surprised that she is getting away with the statement of the government not being comfortable with malay muslims serving in the army... i bet you the government would deny that... for them to acknowledge such a fact would imply racist terms... oh... but her saving grace... "but there are more of them now..." (rolls eyes to back of head)

Sure, for the entire 365 days I spent in Primary 1 in 1989. But my parents paid for my school and university fees for the next 15 years I was studying.

It seems that many Singaporeans do not know that Malays have stopped getting free education since 1990. If I remember clearly, the news made front-page news at that time.

hell yeah i got free education all the way to junior college... or at least i paid a very small sum... i don't know what the big fuss is about... i mean... i didn't choose to go to particularly expensive school... i didn't go to a neighbourhood school either but if parents want to send their child to an expensive school , then don't bitch about the fees... i would think normal school fees are very decent indeed... i seriously don't see why people want to start whining over what is essentially a small amount...

Secondary Education

School fees after subsidy: $5.00
Standard miscellaneous fees: $8.00
Second-tier miscellaneous fees: $8.00
Autonomous Schools collect Autonomous School Fees, ranging from $3 to $18 per month, on top of second-tier miscellaneous fees

*i'll leave the fees for independent schools out...

anyways, i still maintain that the free education issue is really something that was done to honour the fact that singapore was part of the malay sultanate... we are after all actually in a part of the world referred to as the malay archipelago... and that it was done to maintain the welfare of malays... nothing wrong with that... nothing to be envious about... but hey... i have no qualms about malays not getting it either... it's an arcane thing best kept out of the way... have it or don't have it, there will always still be malays who don't give much thought about getting a proper education... the issue of abuse doesn't really really come into the picture...

I said if not for family ties, I would have no qualms about leaving the country. Someone then remarked that this is why Malays like myself are not trusted. But I answered that this lack of patriotism on my part comes from not being trusted, and for being treated like a potential traitor.

i'm sorry if i couldn't make it in my home country and left it to make a living elsewhere and hence developed a sense of bitterness with regards to my home country... anyways... i don't regard our surrounding neighbours as home countries... singapore is still where i call home... explains why i didn't go to an overseas university... and seriously... i do miss the multi-racial aspect of singapore when i am abroad and in a country where the racial make up is largely singular...

ok... this is taking way too long... but to sum it up... i think that once you go into the profession with religious considerations in mind instead of going into the profession hoping that the profession will consider your religion... secular country here... can't do it? don't do it...

yes... i did vote for taufik and hady but i do not know of any malay who frowned upon another malay if the person voted for other competitors... if you suck, you suck... i don't vote for you... simple eh... too sweeping a statement...

malays in bad light... why not... we are not idiot proof... oh the number of times i've seen malays in unfortunate circumstances... (shiver)

oh and finally... the top PSLE scorer... very happy for her... wish her all the best in life... but i don't recall thousands of malays celebrating the news... (i didn't miss the party did i? huh? huh?) i bet the people who were more happy for her were her close friends who most probably comprised of people from other races... and seriously... i had no part in her success... why would i laud it so much so that i owe her celebrating her success? nope... no way...

oh... and for the record... i have never hung a flag outside my house... but that diminishes nothing... nothing....

lauding without truly understanding... oh well...

[ third edition ]

2008-07-31T15:16:00.003+08:00

one more time

oh no...

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go figure... then tell me...

yes...

2008-05-30T23:54:00.013+08:00

~ till the day itself ~

...

been a while since i wrote an entry proper yes... oh well... nothing much no one would really care about anyways... nonetheless... well... lets just put as this... school is out... i figured i'll give myself one or two months of doing not much or nothing at all... and i was really looking forward to the end of what seemed like quite a long time of being in what seems like a very stagnant position to be in... don't get me wrong... i have taken out of the whole experience, much skills and plenty of good friends but i guess it's just some things catching up with me... plenty of times i have had doubts... but somehow, i have managed to see it through... i'd be lying if said i did it alone and i cannot thank quite enough the people ho have stood with me all the while... you know who you are and i thank you...

anyways... as i was saying... i was planning to do as little as possible but then guess what... so much for that... hah! it has been one thing after another... as much as i have been saying that i am tired and all, i have been quite occupied with plenty of stuff... been going back and forth to kuching for a project... nice place... quite boring (and empty at times) but nice in a laid-back kind of way... took plenty of pictures of whatever there is... hopefully, somehow, sometime, the pictures will actually see some form of publishing or another... worked with the really nice director of museums of sarawak... might be going there even more in time to come... yes... i hear global whining... but global whining is going to an even further place herself... as skeptic as she might be... come on... whatever chance... other than karimun... heh heh heh...

moving along... i am really not bothered with my degree show... school is a mess for all i care about... but somehow i think i'll have to produce the stuff anyways... somehow one way or another... the fact that my main pc is still not up and running isn't quite helping... it's where all the stuff are... now i need to salvage whatever i can... urgh...

somewhere in the midst of all these... i actually went to ubin... after like what? three years perhaps? oh... i just had to go there during about the really hot month so far... what was i thinking? i swear i got two shades darker... ok... brown-er... not that i want to be deathly fair... or yellow... heh heh... i like my natural tan... but seriously... i don't need people thinking i'm from thailand anymore... erk... nonetheless... other than the heat and really uncomfortable bicycle seat made worse by the rough terrain... owww... it was quite an escape... something i didn't perhaps think about seriously doing but glad that i did... so yes... somehow... no regrets... thanks man...

amidst all this, lyza got engaged (picture above)... yes lyza... till the day... we shall wait... sorry i had to leave much earlier than i was supposed to but senai is quite some distance away... yes... i fly off from senai... i really wished it's from changi... but at the moment... i don't really have a say in such a choice do i? hmph... and on top of all this, i am still doing my night rounds... quite the effort huh... well... it's how i get by... sometimes i think that i have really gone missing from the lives of many people... and i tell myself... everyone is busy with their own matters... and hmmm... well... the energies of youth isn't quite at levels it used to be isn't it? priorities, priorities, priorities... urgh...

ok ok... my back is hurting from writing this lying on my stomach... and yeah... i think i've written quite enough... till whenever...

on a parting note...

somehow... i remember taking a similar shot last time i went to ubin...

yes... i was wearing jeans...

in memory...

2008-04-30T15:10:00.008+08:00

~ 280408 ~

{ goodbye jo... be at peace... }

it has...

2008-04-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

set in motion...

run...

2008-04-21T16:27:00.001+08:00

on wednesday...

2008-04-14T02:39:00.002+08:00

this is due...

these things...

2008-04-03T00:53:00.004+08:00

some things heal,

others might break again

at times things are new,

then you feel like you are repeating yourself again;

every single step along the way

with same faces, different times

the places whisper to you familiarity

and there is comfort when

some things fly away

other never really go

they follow like echoes

all at the same time; overwhelmingly

arcing across planes and across divides that form,

between you and me.

you make do and then be on your way

supernova

2008-03-27T00:09:00.005+08:00

i don't know if this will help and i am formulating it as i go along... first up is the fact that school is absolutely and utterly depressing... dead will be another word to describe it... it feels sterile... empty... i see people around but there is no one familiar... guess that is what happens when most of your batch have gone off and what is left are the few doing their BA... even then... most are off doing their work somewhere else... at home most likely... it is just saddening to see this happening... from what i remember as a... well... happier bunch when we first came in as foundation students almost 4 years ago... to the deserted corner that is level 5 block h... it really doesn't help that i don't seem to have anyone to see this through with me in my course... there are 8 others but it is not the same... i am sorry sam i couldn't help you this time... on hindsight, perhaps i should have so that you will be here working alongside... i am alone in the studio most of the time... then again... it is perhaps my fault as well considering that i almost only come after 2pm... there is no one to talk to.... no one to share a joke with... no one to whine to or complain about how work is killing me... and then get back to work... i hear the fashion and jewellery students talking next door and i envy them... and it makes me sad thinking that i am there alone... and i bury myself with work hoping that i don't think about it... but when i stop, it just dawns upon me once more... it doesn't really help that my level 1 and level 2 studios are at another floor and unlike the old campus where my level 3 were just next door and we would go around every now and then checking on each other... then again... i don't really know my juniors... i meet kris every now and then but he's busy with his work and i don't want to impose... i miss having ray around... i miss kev and kkl... eugene is around but i have no idea where she is... and that's it... that basically sums up friends i have in school... my work is getting along ok i guess... i don't have proper technical drawings... but i have scale drawings that serve me as templates and i guess that is just as important... i am thinking of calling up PNS office and asking if i can defer my reservist next week but a part of me says just go and get it over and done with because i don't think i want to go through 3 days with another unit... perhaps there i can actually talk to people... i have to finish the main parts of my model this week and hopefully all the parts can be done by the end of today... i have to... i want to finish this... i have never quit and i don't want to to start... then again... there is a part of me that is asking what next.... and that freaks me out on levels not many know... yeah... i look calm and collected outside... but seriously... the uncertainty is really getting to me... another part... the optimistic part i would say... just cannot wait for all this to end so that i can bury my head in my hands and say, "it is done... it is done...", where then i will take a deep breath... and i will go off... sad again to see all of it end... well... that's the sentimental me there... i had a dream the other night... i was sailing away on an old boat from a jetty in a village setting... i said goodbye to my father... i was very sad... i knew i was going away to study... after saying goodbye to my father... i went on the boat... and i was scolded by my sister for being sad... i don't know what it means... but perhaps it kind of sums up an unconscious state of mind which i have been going through lately... well.... i think i have rambled too much... it has really been a while since i wrote so much i think... i think i need to try and sleep... i intend to actually be in school in the morning later and see if there is anyone around... i am not really that tired and maybe perhaps i will do work but somehow my mind is very much elsewhere... where... i don't really know...

another...

2008-03-23T16:45:00.002+08:00

~ best wishes ~

all there is...

2008-03-23T02:47:00.017+08:00

sometimes... i like to try again...

29.02.2008

2008-02-29T17:02:00.004+08:00

i just had to put it in an entry for the 29th of february... i just had to... once in four years... yah... this blog missed the last february in a leap year although it started in a leap year... so i just have to do this... just for the record... cheers!

if it has come to this...

2008-02-09T00:33:00.001+08:00

say it in my face...

been a long time...

2008-02-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

sometimes... just sometimes...

two - zero - zero - eight

2008-01-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

somehow this time round... the passing of the year felt quiet... which is not necessarily bad thing i suppose considering how 2008 is prospecting... the calm before the storm perhaps... well... i shall await... nonetheless... happy new year one and all... much hope and peace... the world needs plenty of those now... god bless...

part of...

2007-12-28T12:21:00.000+08:00

...i am just tired of all this studying... after like what? 18 years of being in some educational institution of some form or another... i think i had just about plain enough of it...

i'll probably miss it few years down the road but i think i can safely say that i have reached the end of any form of formal education or at least studying on a full-time basis...

i seriously do not know how people can do it for any longer... compulsions to get on with my life as it is, is at a high point... i find no solace in the apparent security of academia... after this certificate, i figure i do not need any more that do not have the imprint of the word 'life' on it...

i'll take my chances... i think i have been taught well... i believe i have the necessary skills to take on whatever it is that come in my way... i have seen people get way with less... i need to test these feet and see how they would fit a new pair of shoes... shoes that actually tread on reality...

oh well... 20 more weeks and it will all be over... then again... i still do not really know where to go from there on... bummer...

along the way...

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i was called upon... much happiness the two of you... together...

of things...

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[ 271107 ]

[ sg zoo ]

one time...

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- from labrador park -

still here...

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- east coast -

around...

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- punggol -

not lost...

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- punggol end -

2007-10-12T09:55:00.000+08:00

{ maaf zahir dan batin }

summing it up...

2007-09-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

one picture...

moving on...

2007-08-31T23:07:00.000+08:00

for trying, for believing...

two...

2007-07-31T23:56:00.000+08:00

before the month runs out...
to many more...

going up...

2007-07-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

yeah... i went...

lasalle...

2007-06-28T03:12:00.001+08:00

some time ago within the confines of junior college, i awoke up from a slumber and asked myself what am i doing here...
there has been no looking back ever since...
i awoke from a slumber...
literally...
metaphorically...

goodman... much to cherish nonetheless...

some outing...

2007-05-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

sometime in the midst of everything that was going on... a team outing to JB took place... i was awfully late... all apologies...

once a month thingy...

2007-05-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

right... before the month runs out... i shall... well... do this...

lemme see... school is out... for some time now... my last project went ok... nothing much there... i have never stayed back in school for so much... even then, it wasn't finished on time... then again... no one finished on time and we got our gambled extensions but not after i got an earful for failing to get everything done on time... whatever it is... we got our act together and well... it ended nicely... tiring it was yes but to get another step out of the way is a good feeling... although the cynical me is telling myself that all this would just mean that the reality beyond the confines of learning environment is all so ever so much closer... as it is... sometimes i do think, "and then what?"... oh well... when the time comes... i will get it done some... que sera sera... as much as i don't really like to use that line... now we wait until august to see who has made the decision to come back for another year to get another certificate which implies 'that you are an able, learned and thinking (hopefully) member of society who is deserving of a certain status quo all in no small part due to the fact that you have invested a good portion of the youth of your life in a learning institution and hence delaying your entry into the real world'... and that you would inevitably have to start paying back the person whose CPF you used to pay for your studies... how grim... oh... if you wondering...

beyond that... errr... no resubmissions... suspicious... zilch and honeyworld... they are going to steal my designs but i don't really care... so much for getting back to me... i hope they will but another side of me just want to enjoy my holidays... maybe once i start getting bored i will actually start to do something... got sick for a good week... it was an epidemic of sorts i tell you... so many others fell sick too... such a weird bout of flu, cold, or whatever it was... still wondering why the doctor did not prescribe any antibiotics... i suspect he suspects that i will abuse it... perhaps i do impart that perception... little do they know of my alter ego... then again... the lesser the better... other than that... if all goes well... i would have clocked my most hours this month but still sub-hundred... one fine month i will go beyond a hundred just because i can... hahaha... somewhere before all that... shibly got married as indicated in my previous post... nice affair with me relegated to the 'singles' table... hahaha... i just joke about it... nothing else harbored... really wish the both of them all the best... saw their wedding pics... nicely done with all the diffused glow... and the really nice border... no samples here...

been involved with soccer... overcast is good, sunny is not... not my former self... not as fast and really lost touch with playing on field... i kept letting the ball roll past and unable to catch up henceforth as due to small frame, the opponent would have already out-muscled me to the ball... i am really starting to wonder where my aggression which has brought me some defensive titles has gone to... oh... do i hear you say i have mellowed... hah!

in between all that... spent plenty of some time with chica as can be seen in her multiply... i don't carry around a camera anymore... she does... and hence why all the pictures are with her... don't worry... more pictures are bound to surface considering that plenty of stuff have been thought up of and that the 'magic' box still has got plenty of ideas in it... by the way... if you have been wondering... this 'magic' box that you would have probably known of from chica's blog is a completely imaginary being with no real physical representation... there is no real thought being put on paper or anything which subsequently gets put into a box... it's all imaginary... we do it for fun... we don't really remember everything that we think up of... we do things as they come along... although the one thing that alot more people are asking about is still some way to go... a whole lot more... even a crazy guy is asking... nyerrr...

movies, movies, movies... now that i have the time... not much actually... spiderman 3 and pirates of the carribean 3... both were confusing... spiderman 3 had a redundant villain in the shape of the creatively named, sandman and a seriously underdeveloped venom... i mean... given any day, i'd rather watch venom than the drab sandman... and for goodness sake peter, can you not see that mj is such a fickle character who keeps finding new guys just to make you notice her... urgh... and she is so jealous of the fact that you have a better public life than her and that you look so much better in tight spandex... wahaha... pirates 3 had a script which makes it very hard to understand just what is going on... and just where in the hell in singapore do you find such a place as how they depicted? i don't remember singapore having guilins like what was shown in the movie... and please... not everyone in singapore is chinese yes... even if they were pirates... i am sure there are malay pirates... i mean i have seen malays sells pirated vcds too yes... back to the script... i so did not get what they were trying to say that when i got back home i went online to wikipedia just to figure out what the hell happened... and daft i am not... i mean... i understood the intricacies of the matrix trilogy... must be the way how calypso talked... damn irritating... what she trying to pull off? an akasha from queen of the damned? no on can quite pull off what aaliyah did yes... that was something else... rip... so at one point of time in the movie, i decided to screw what the hell the movie was about and just enjoy the action sequences... loved the monkey... and wow... the casting of keith richards as jack sparrow's father is just uncanny... although i'll be damned if johnny depp starts looking as scraggly as keith richards... i know of at least one person who would just be so aghast... someone who has already watched the movie twice yes... hahaha...

ok ok... i think i have written quite a lot to cover the month... i need to get back to my nfs carbon yes... quite backdated yes due to school and the fact that i stay off games during school terms... righty then... till whenever... cheers!

oh yeah... i so need to get the new travis album...

blissfully...

2007-04-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

god bless your eternal union...

my luck...

2007-03-13T18:19:00.000+08:00

1. Ensure your music player is in the shuffle mode.
2. Press next/forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question, even if it doesn't make sense.

How are you feeling today?
whir - the smashing pumpkins

Will you get far in life?
the reason - hoobastank

How do your friends see you?
frail and bedazzled - the smashing pumpkins

Will you get married?
without you - mariah carey

What is your life's theme song?
that particular time - alanis morissette

What is the story of your life?
fanmail - tlc

What was high school like?
blank page - the smashing pumpkins

How can you get ahead in life?
so-called chaos - alanis morissette

What is tomorrow going to be like?
tomorrow comes today - gorillaz

What is the best thing about your friends?
eight easy steps - alanis morissette

What is in store for the next weekend?
champagne supernova - oasis

What song best describes you?
daysleeper - rem

How is your life going?
all i want to do is rock (live) - travis

What song will play at your funeral?
guerilla radio - rage against the machine

How does the world see you?
the beginning is the end is the beginning - the smashing pumpkins

Will you have a happy life?
i drive myself crazy - 'n sync

What do your friends really think of you?
where did you sleep last night - nirvana

What song describes the person you're attracted to?
porcelain - moby

What message would you like to tell the next generation?
the gift - angels and airwaves

Do you have a deep dark secret?
jesus of suburbia (jesus of suburbia/city of the damned/i don't care/dearly beloved/tales of another broken home) - green day

hahaha... some truth yes...

there it goes...

2007-02-28T19:20:00.000+08:00

ahhh yes... february... the shortest month... filled with... well... stuff... much was done... like catching up with school... amidst many other 'activities'...

early part was spent speding chica's birthday week... usually done in a day, she has a week... in pale comparison to last year's "under the radar" situation... heh... but it was good yes... much to eat... no wait... too much to eat... then came a retreat... which is basically a chalet of sorts where the night before was spent painting a banner... haven't been painting for a while... yes... i do miss painting... the complicated part for this was that i set myself out to not make it look like a cloth banner due to some comments made... tsk... oh well... i think it turned fine... "simple and nice"... and that is to quote... middle parts was spent covering for CNY... rare times i did a 1-2... nonetheless... situations made it very understandable though... really didn't mind doing it... do it all over again? that remains to be seen... and yes... a certain someone has since left the confines of the team... really, really wish him all the best... he's been wanting to explore ever since i knew him 4 years ago and only now is he finally... well... somewhere else... i know you won't forget the rest of us... the end was spent catching up with school work... i don't think i was too crazily far behind... but me... i like to stay a reasonable distance ahead... and then came the submissions... irritatingly enough... but the sense of the end is close... very close... and then that was it for the month...

anyways... before i wrap up... here is something i would really like to share... photographs from chica... i think they are very good indeed... she went for this photography course... and then she went around taking photographs... now... where have i encountered that? heh... it's been a while yes... i would really like to do that again... nonetheless (i am overusing the word...) a few pictures have received some favorable comments and for a change of pace where i usually put up photographs that i took, here are some of what chica has taken...

not bad eh? and yes... no photoshop... looks like i will be quite redundant soon...

busy, busy, busy?

2007-01-29T11:14:00.000+08:00

so yes... i was away on reservist for the past 18 days... as some of you might have found out... didn't want to say anything about it prior to leaving for it but couldn't resist the temptation to tempt... and... let's just say that i was not wrong... tsk tsk tsk...

summary, summary, summary... year started... very well indeed... had a lovely breakfast with chica on new year's day... all was calm, all was right... finished up certain 'obligations' prior to certain impending situations... school started... minus one personnel... wish him well... went for one class on monday... tuesday class got cancelled as lecturer himself was on reservist... then it was off for reservist on thursday...

ok... so here is how reservist went... came, figured it would be interesting to see how may would actually turn up as this cycle was during 'schooling' period... as it was to be... not many could make it... total strength was much less than that during ICT1... my troop shrank about by a third... as a result, this ICT was much quieter overall... nonetheless, it turned out to be quite good indeed... it had to be, we were living with the spectre of the unit being disbanded after this ICT... i think most were trying to make best of whatever time left... routines were more or less the same... though definitely less hectic than the previous ICT... this time round is more a refresher course than actually learning anything new... so we were going through plenty of things really fast... thing is not many actually remembered much from slightly more than a year ago... but what the hell... it got around to us eventually... other than that, i got a hundred less out of the system this time round due to 11 seconds... bummer... it's the new route i tell you... had multiple IA stoppages but that didn't stop me from getting a better score than the last... hahaha... such a relief... such a relief... so then came Scorpius at our KINS... which turned out quite well... except for some sporadic showers time and again, the weather was cloudy almost all the time we were there... which was perfectly fine with me... rather than it be blazing hot... so yes... it was a cool, calm and collected exercise all the way through... and yes... even with a much smaller strength, the unit did very well indeed so much so that some underhand tactics had to be utilised so that the exercise can end proper and early too... and mind you, the KINS encompassed a very large area of land as well... which goes to show how well the unit works together... and as such, due to this camraderie of sorts, it is highly probable that unit will not be disbanded and instead be renamed as a new unit to take over a senior unit... which i think is the best course of action for the unit... dowside to this is that we (might?) have to go through another Scorpius at the new KINS we will be going through... somehow... i don't think, despite of the apparent noise and complaints, that many will actually mind going through another Scorpius at a new KINS... as long as we stay together...

so yes... tomorrow life will resume for the better portion of the unit... and that will include me... which will mean that i have to get back to school and get to work on my project proper... a project that i can safely say that i have abandoned completely for the duration of my recall peroid... tsk, tsk, tsk... all of which, will mean that i should stop doign this and get down to doing work... right about now... so yes... at a later time... hopefully...

and by the way... this is the current state of my unit now...

as compared to this during ICT1...

it was good nonetheless... very good indeed...

version 2...

2007-01-21T18:19:00.000+08:00

{oh... you didn't know?}.

into zero seven

2007-01-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

ah yes... 2007 is here... before it officially runs out on me, i would like to wish all those who actually get here a happy new year... many blessings and much happiness... cheers!

will actually write an entry proper in a while...

looking out...

2006-12-22T03:58:00.000+08:00

{ in the ancient city... }

shock and horror!

2006-12-08T15:34:00.000+08:00

{ madness }

so... what do we do now?

2006-12-08T03:01:00.000+08:00

ok yes... the holidays... they have been around for some time... now i shall do my self-obligatory "at least one entry per month" thing....

lots of things have happened... been almost two months since i actually wrote anything... last entry with something to actually satiate the voyuers out there was in august... too much to write about actually... ok no... not that much... since... i have been sleeping most of the time... ok no... since the holidays only that is...

school was absolutely draining; the last four weeks of it... running around quite a fair bit... had to literally steal time during the fasting month in order get certain things done... did not really help that classes were held in the evening when it was time to break fast... but i think i did well and got what i set out to do spiritually... other than that... during raya period... i remember going to the printers at 2 in the morning... after going through a whole day of about my only 'raya' outing, besides the ones for and with family, this year... oh heck... the whole raya was like that... had an exam the day after raya... and for the next two weeks, it was busy, busy, busy... it would be quite hard to actually infer from the pictures from the last entry that i was actually in the midst of my assesment week during that period of time but i was... come to think about it, it was quite almost superhuman... after printers, it was back home to do a report and a journal that was due in 6 hours... and not a single word had been written... managed to pull that off... somehow... think both turned out quite well... then it was off to school to set up the studio and get everything ready by 10am and leave the studio... then we had to wait and see if we were to be called up by the jury... which took some time... had to wait until 4pm actually... spent the time catching up on alot of lost sleep in ray's car... only woke up to go out and get sustenance... such a relief to have all that out of the way now... hopefully my work for the second term can cover up the nonsense i did for the first term... it better... or else... if you were wondering... below is the outcome of the term...

that raya outing was very nice indeed... never envisioned myself to be going on such an outing with so many people post junior college... yes... there was at one point of time about 28 people... went all over the island... very tiring but good nonetheless... and if you had gone around voyuering into blogs of the people involved, they would have mentioned about the amount of food... i shall put on record that i didn't eat at every house... i was actually full after the first house... hah... i tried... but i really did not want to regurgitate all that i have eaten...

anyways... had a little trip across the causeway (wonder why it is called the causeway... do i really need a cause to get across?) with ray and sam... kind of needed that little escape... as a sense of closure... for me... it was really just to get some fuckin' gonads... or dunkin donuts if you didn't know what i wa stalking about... they should really come back here to sg... would save me alot of trouble... i mean... why even leave in the first place?! went to the new mall in jb... quite some distance... ray didn't want to drive in cause none of us wanted to get robbed/killed in some horrific manner or at least tempt anyone to do as such... my w/c is useless there... mall was nicely done... reminds me of klcc... about the only 'standard' mall in the country until now... just wonder how long it can stay that way... came to the resolution that singaporeans are about the only people in the world who would go through considerable distances to check out a new mall... oh heck... i got what i wanted out of it... would go back there again... if not for anything then just for the fuckin' gonads... ar har...

so far, holidays have been spent quite well... been working every now and then... nothing too obsessive... people at work have been fun to be with and very helpful along the way... made the transtion back to work very smooth after a two year lapse so much so that work proper have been nothing that is beyond cope... obviously some things have changed... that is not entirely unexpected as things change and people move on... one cannot really expect everything to reamin the same all the time... new faces here and there... on a personal note, made sure to self to keep a level head... done reasonably well there i think... can't really talk much about work here... don't want to actually... otherwise, i just don't want to get into trouble for writing about things i am not supposed to... in short, work is going along very fine indeed... thank you all... weird part would be explaining to people who are not in the know as to why they see me around... urgh... still don't know how to go about doing that... tsk...

other than that... been spending quality time with my chica... MY chica... so all you people, yes you people, can just continue to leave us alone... and if you haven't, you really, really, really should start to... we are doing very fine thank you if you need to know... yes... it is still not a daily basis thing but you don't really need to know how we function... don't bother... save yourself the headache... don't compare, don't nothing... especailly if it is just to console yourself... appreciate the concern but we know where we are going... we like to remind ourselves of such from time to time... and if you need to know... i am getting possessive... in my own mannerisms yes... period...

if not, then the indelible i-jo has been in the scene... had his exhibition at the pan pacific... really nice his work... would like to tell him this; that i am very proud of you and what you has come to be and to what, with much perserverance and determination, you will eventually be... i really wish you all the best with what you are setting out to do and in general to all your future endeavours... know that you will have have my undying support and concern even if it at times if does not seem to be as such... and no... i don't mind you asking me out at all... i am glad and thankful that we are good friends... and know that i have and will try, best as possible, not to turn you down... you, have that solemn promise... until the day of course that we get into an unreconcilable bitch fight and start hating each other like the day we first crossed paths... heh heh...

all right, think i have written quite a fair bit... that and the fact that it is almost 5am now... yes... my body clock is screwed... yet again... no promises but hopefully i can get down to writing a few more entries and uploading a few more pictures before a certain date... a certain date a particular someone is dreading... i think... heh heh... till next time... ciao!

this juncture...

2006-11-18T15:59:00.000+08:00

{ PR }

{ long, long road }

i-jo show...

2006-11-18T15:35:00.000+08:00

{ X-tina }

a month on...

2006-11-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

{ family }

{ colleagues }

4:50

2006-10-17T03:44:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep and i know that i am supposed to be doing work. will start in due time. this laziness is really getting to me. was trying to get some sleep when ray sms-ed asking if i had read the e-mail from one of my letcurers. thought it was something really important. net just had to act up. ended up calling him. nothing which involves plate tectonics. anyways... got around to helping my father set up his 'new'(term being used realtively here) fishtank. ok lah. needs some work. shall see how it goes. will put in the extra hand when called upon or when it seems that he needs the extra hand. can't leave him doing everything. don't like to see that happening either. done with that, went snooping around the net. usual things. i don't really get myself into the intricacies of what is available. of which brings me to this point where i am questioning myself as to why i seem to be of no opinion as of late. this is me trying to justify myself.

if you look around, my entries have been very limited. i don't really make an effort to write anymore these days. i try to put one entry a month just to keep a record of how long this blog have been up. i take pictures every now and then but i don't do anything with them. they are somewhere in my computer. sometimes i view them and subsequently, sometime, i do something with them and put them up here to share with whomever kindred soul that comes by this blog. not many i reckon. not very interesting yes. no tag board wars to keep people coming back for more. i am at a point where i shun controversies of any sort i guess. i like to keep my life and thoughts grounded. yes, i have this 'need-to-know' tendency sometimes but the compulsion to do so has somwhat whittled to a trickle. i think i am getting very boring. no wait. i know i am getting boring. i know i have this imagery of a a 'motor/laser-mouth, say first think later, hyperactive, run around and irritate people and try to bring them down with a concoction of really confusing words just to emphasize my prowess of the vocabulary, justfied or otherwise, cynical, sarcastic, caustic, rude, obnoxious, vain and... the list does seem to go on doesn't it? i think you get my drift. ok, so i am still cynical and vain. but seriously, i am a shadow of what i used to be. even then, i think even the shadow is rather disgraceful. in a way somehow, i am slipping away into realms which i would have never imagined myself to be. i still drink coke everyday though and my molars are in a bad shape. and i still digress but not withstanding all that, i think i am getting old. oh goodness. strangly enough... i am sitting quite well with it. i have my 'laugh-out-loud, hahaha' moments but i find it hard to feel really obtuse about anything these days. i have my ideas but i don't feel inclined to share them much less force them onto anybody. i have moments of silence of which i seek solace in this void which for an extended period of time i have been trying to fill it with something worthwhile. i don't regret my youth. i reminisce. i smile and i move on. sometimes i worry about my short-comings but a new dawn will usually herald the end of my anxieties. and i worry about how i am going to execute my next project. i like school but i am very aware that i am having to make a conscious effort to keep on going. sometimes i feel like i need to be someplace else. the vast expanses of the gobi desert is very alluring. no means of getting there maybe. sometimes i wish i can walk there without grumbling about the heat and the fact that i need to get my hair done a certain way.

that aside, here is what i actually even bothered to click on certain parts of the screen to get to this create post window:
an old friend made some commentary with regards to racism against malays. i tell myself this: i am a cynic too but i wouldn't have gone through such lengths to do what he has done. i applaud his persistence though. i have let it go some time back. sorry dude...
seriously i don't care. racism against malays. hell... we malays are have our bouts of racism against others too. none of that holier-than-thou *thing* (in place of a lesser word) here. one thing malays are is that we are a lot who are envious of others. we cannot be truly happy for our neighbour. explains why we get new curtains every now and then. such misplaced energy if channeled in constructive mannerisms can lead to very, very, dangerous things in views of certain people 'up there'. i know i probably need more justification with regards to malays and curtains but hey... why do you think the staff at curtain shops, regardless of race (language or religion... hahaha) can speak malay no matter how broken it is. ok maybe it is because malay is very easy to learn hence the non-existence of any 'bahasa melayu cool' campaigns. heaven forbid a 'bahasa melayu gerek' campaign. i am not saying all this as if it is a bad thing. its just a casual observation. people should be allowed their whims. racial groups included here.

the other thing i would like to just say something about is that national service in singapore does not exclsively include the army. alot of other people do other things than take a ferry to tekong. i can find the merits of serving the army but it does not make anyone any lesser to serve elsewhere. i might make remarks about the civil defence every now and then but let it be said here that i do truly respect the contributions and services rendered by the men and women of the singapore civil defence. very honourable indeed. very much like the nursing profession. this is a shout out to all you nurses out there. especially male nurses. salutations all around. i think we should have a 'nurses day' where we show appreciation to all nurses everywhere if we don't already have such a day. the one thing though, back to the NS thing, is that people come different with regards to where they have been. each with his own merits. but please lah, a war is not only with regards to whether a singapore malay (muslim?) will shot a malaysian malay (muslim too? malay is a race after all...) when it is required of him/her to do so. this predicament is getting old. next please. what if, you were to change the word 'malay' to some other race? why not ask such questions? are other races not subjected to affinities with their own races too? i think that as a defensive (and i use the term liberally) force, the idea is the collective. the judgement whose-ever it is, should be sound, the leader should be worthy and capable (and in that order) and the justification... well... the justification... hmmm... justified... for lack of a better word. i really need to look into the fighting for ones country is one of the most exalted forms of jihad thing. i think the term jihad is very overused indeed yes? i think sometimes we need to forget that some world leader actually said it and hence it existed. i think that it should just be used within a certain context and not be brandished like some icon meant to be exploited. conspiracies not withstanding. i would just like to mention that jihad encompasses alot more things than just going into war with really cool face-paint. there are many other forms of jihad and in my personal opinion, i think the most under-rated form of jihad is when a woman, a mother, gives birth to a child (children if they are multiple births). for that, we cannot ever repay the debt and gratitude we owe our mothers. obviously, this issue should be placed in the right context but that is for you to delve upon because i think that i have written too much for now and i need to get on to having my sahur. yes. i do fast.

righty, before i wrap this up... lets just remind ourselves that we really be too anal about this racism thingy and that by being anal about it, we are just perpetrating someone else to be anal about it too. lets just enjoy the company of other races in this multi-racial country we live in (at least we have different races if comapred to maybe certain other parts of the world where there is just on race) and lets just bask in the fact that no matter what race you are, you are inevitably caught up the 'rat-race'. no? you lie...

much laughter with a healty dose of salt honey... and you are on your way...

random picture...

2006-09-20T17:03:00.000+08:00

some time ago... i took pictures...

oh why...

2006-08-13T13:15:00.000+08:00

in return...

1. i am funny... at times...

2. i have learned the art of getting to only the important parts...

3. i am a man of many talents... cheh...

4. it's not the camera... it's the cameraman...

5. i am psychic...

6. i use the force...

7. if it helps...

8. i am charming... i know...

9. cholesterol is a silent killer...

10. the way to a man's heart is through his stomach... not yours...

11. it's quite disgusting actually... but hey... one word... aprhodisiac...

12. same same...

13. i can't type out a 'bok face'...

14. the sweet talker i am...

15. TWICE!

16. it still is mine... it's on an indefinite loan...

17. i am 15...

18. i started the club... with emma... hahahaha...

19. more than you think honey... more than you can ever possibly think...

20. brown and pink only tastes good...

21. naan? naadah...

22. but you are!

23. me too...

24. i don't even have to think about it...

others get birthday dedications... i get a list... that's why things are as they are... cheers!

for the uninitiated... refer to my first link...

lights and brilliance...

2006-08-05T19:19:00.000+08:00

oh did i mention anything about coldplay?

absolutely brilliant...
owe you big time...

huh? what?

2006-08-05T18:09:00.000+08:00

i don't really have any idea what i am going to write. i am going to try.
me and night classes don't go. i mean i know i am a creature of the night but to drag myself to school for night classes on tuesdays and thursdays is not appealing at all. that's not the worst. on two days i have ridiculously long gaps between classes maximum being a seven and a half hour break. i am thinking that maybe when i start to get really busy those gaps will be filled in but seriously, i do work at home. never got into the comfort of doing work in school. as it is, work is piling up. already i am not too agreeable with the first design studio project. but i will move along nonetheless. must see through all this. must not get into the habit of quitting. o
ther than that, have been reasonably occupied with my other 'work' if it can even be considered that. to pass time maybe but when i don't have much time to spare and i still present myself, it would mean an altogether different motivation wouldn't it? like say tomorrow. oh well. that was why i took so long to even get to this point.
ok, as it i am supposed to get ready to be somewhere else and only now i think i know why i even logged in the first place and that is to upload pictures. i know i haven't been doing so but it doesn't mean that i am not taking photos at all. just that i am using my phone camera most of the time these days. and also, i have been taking alot of pictures with other people's camera. hopefully i will obtain possession of the images. some are really quite worth mentioning i think. here are some random stuff...

if you were wondering what pre-parade before the gates are open looks like, it looks like the above.

post-parade looks like this. almost everyone has left but we are still around. to think that i have never been to a national day parade as a spectator. it only felt right that for the last NDP that i had to be there. ok so it wasn't actual day but the idea is just to be there. it was a long day but worth it nonetheless.

don't know why i even took this picture i just like the composition. was walking around in arab street waiting for chica looking around at some fabrics when i decided to start taking pictures.

stuck in jam, late for work, sunset. brilliant combination. there was another day when the sunset was even better but the bus was moving and i couldn't get a clear shot.
will do more in due time. especially when i get my hands on certain images from others. now, i have to get moving. hohoho. late i am. cheers yes. anyways, on a parting note, angels and airwaves, nice album yes. very much worth a listen. yeah, the songs might sound alike but after a few listens, some of the songs really do stand out.

oh... you didn't know... jeng, je-jeng, jeng, jeng...

2006-07-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

i was tagged (like some wild animal being tracked)... so here goes...

10 Favs:
Favourite Colour : yell ow
Favourite Food : lots... chicken rice from 'jong ann' is comfort food...
Favourite Song : tonight tonight - smashing pumpkins
Favourite Movie : lots... LOTR...
Favourite Sport : soccer... don't play much anymore...
Favourite Day of the Week : no pref...
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour : choc fudge brownie... ben & jerry's
Favourite Car Model : lots... mercedez SLR mclaren or the SLK...
Favourite Subject in School : art...
Favourite Snacks : lots... sometimes sweet, sometimes savory...

9 Current:
Current Mood : blur...
Current Taste : huh?
Current Clothes : yellow jersey and dark blue shorts...
Current Desktop : foster's home for imaginary friends...
Current Toenail Colour : normal...
Current Time : 8:10pm
Current Surroundings : room....
Current Annoyance(s) : itchy neck...
Current Thoughts : need... to go... toilet...

8 First(s):
First Best Friend : leslie???
First Crush : can't remember...
First Movie : who framed roger rabbit?
First Piercing : none...
First Lie : too many to remember...
First Music : errr...
First Car : no have...
First Real Date Venue : somewhere with food?

7 Last(s):
Last Drink : plain water...
Last Car Ride : kris's dad's car...
Last Movie : pirates of the caribbean... dead man's chest... bad guys not as cool as the first one though...
Last Phone Call : to me chica...
Last Song Played : valkyrie missile... angels and airwaves...
Last Food Ate : lontong...
Last Thing I do before I go to sleep : drink lots of plain water...

6 Have You Ever(s):
Dated one of your best friends : nope...
Broken the law : yeah... hell...
Been arrested : never... i do the arresting... wahahaha...
Skinned dipped : nope...
Been on TV : yeah... silly stuff...
Kissed someone you didn't know : nope...

5 Things You Are Wearing: (usually)
1. yellow jersey...
2. dark blue shorts...
3. my ring..
4. N.A.
5. N.A.

4 Things You've Done Today:
1. wake up...
2. breakfast @ swensen's bugis...
3. beach road to get some stuff...
4. back to bugis for movie with chica...

3 Things You Can Hear Right Now:
1. fan above, infront...
2. aircon above, behind...
3. polar bears due to arctic conditions...

2 Things You Can't Live Without:
1. faith...
2. hope...

1 Thing You Do When You Are Bored:
eat...

5 Beautiful Peeps to Carry On The Game :
who cares...

and the story goes...

2006-06-20T13:24:00.000+08:00

don't ask how the title for this entry is related... just felt that it was right to put it as such... anyways... yes... i am back from my short holidays in penang... lost count how many times i've been there... anyways... trip was uneventful... was more of a holidays to rest and relax than to go around sight-seeing... honestly not much to see that hasn't been seen... although i would have to say penang has done good... environmentally much better... ate too much, slept too little... what can i say, it's the world cup period... i'd say i'd rather play a game of recreational soccer than watch it but don't let me dampen anybody's spirits yes... pictures you ask? did i take any nice pictures? unfortunately, i was uninspired... wasn't awlking around alot so not much was seen... most were generally taken around the hotel area... whatever the case is... here are some stuff...

for idealistic purposes...

more where that came from...

dont' really do black and white pictures... this was taken in colour but felt that it has to be in in black and white... look closely...

dreary weather will always allure me...

affectionate rats with wings...

vandalism gone good...

a picture with nothing? look again...

oh well... that's about all that is worth showing... everything else is... let's just say that i went quite voyeuristic... aided obviously by some really intent zooming... heh heh heh...

for the record, i am not rooting for any team for this world cup but this is what i can say so far:
brazil - get rid of fatso and put robinho... and gilberto...
france - someone tell zidane to stop sweating so much and tell vieira to use his really long legs to actually run...
argentina - messi = revelation
spain - more fa(r)bregas please...
england - crouch is a freak... goodness... something out of a b-grade horror movie...
germany - stop playing the offside trap and maybe you don't need to score so much...
netherlands - too bad robben is playing for chelski...
portugal - remove ronaldo and maybe i will watch them...
mexico - don't why but i am always rooting for them to do well...
sweden - same for sweden... ok maybe because they have ljungberg...
italy - same old, same old... blah...
as for all the asian countries... i shall wish them all the best... damn korea for that late goal against the french but can't really stay mad at them for long yes...

ok... cheers... as it is... we only come out at night...

this is...

2006-05-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

m e m o r y i n s p e e d

noted

2006-05-24T16:11:00.000+08:00

looks around...
not really knowing what to write...
knows that regular updates is really just an ideal...
realistically it has been one entry a month...
really not much to write about...

too much time in the north maybe?
then again it is not that it is not wanted...
really... it's a change...
though knows that hearts is still in the east... haha...

muse have been quiet... thinks so...
sporadic, random thoughts every now and then but nothing really materialises...
frustrating you would think...
being the hypercritical...
but silence is sometimes called for...
leaves other senses open...

the shutter hasn't moved much...
neglected even...
the lens is with siblings...
spare maybe the mobile communication equipment...
but then it is not remotely close to good to start off with...
all apologies...

damns the plagiariasm incident...
insulted can only start to describe...

presents self...
no one knows about arrival...
there goes...
eye-rolling...
leaves wondering just why people get into it in the first place...
is power really that addicting...
or maybe even only the sense of it is enticing enough...
B A S K E T
knows can either set apart and do it alone...
or get embroiled to the neck in the mess...

a guy, a girl and 2... hmmm...
much time...
much laughter...
nice to reminisce...

a new house...
a new hope...
a new beginning...
can only wish for much and more blessings and happiness...
health and fortune...
expresses thanks for kind hospitality...

time is going by really fast...
without much notice...
one month to go before the last, or second, depends, hurdle...
yet to find a direction...
needs to go out and see...
not like has not been moving around...
but have not been looking...
not a choice really...
have to do it...
somehow...
even then...
till whenever...

can relate to what/how you feel...
understands where you come from...
sorry...
but you didn't deserve that...
and considering the occasion...
it was most inappropriate...
here is an offer extended...
of whatever it can be...
no hostility...
you know how to get there...
knows you come here...
knows you know...
that much i give you...
not like others...
yes...

~end note~

there goes...

2006-04-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

yes... there goes... there goes year 2... one/two more years of school to go... will deal with it when the time comes... yes... as it is... i am getting quite tired of school... then again... grass is always greener on the other side... whatever it is... i am just glad that the 2 semesters are over... somehow i was quite happy with my works... more so than i was with my foundation year works... i prefer sem 2 work over sem 1 though... feels more complete... yes... now i have to think about just what it is i will do next semester... not something i do conspicuosly though... if it happens, it happens...

whatever it is... well... these was what i did for the semester...

right... don't ask me for specifics... all i know is that these were done for the 'studio' modules... one is a clothes peg and the other is a workspace divider... simplistic... yes... i know...

this is for the 'written/more thinking' modules... it is a digital camera that is reminiscent of... well... old cameras... the board on the right are the trends that it was based upon... there is a 37-paeg report to back it up but i think i will spare it...

it will be interesting to note that i missed the date(dead)line for the camera... and no matter how good it is... i will still just get a pass... and nothing more... it's a risk taken to meet some personal standards... just couldn't bring myself to submit an erlier version....

everything else was on time yes... so no problems there... to summarise the feeling for the sem... my studio components were better than my written components... unlike sem 1 when it was vice-versa... so hopefully... there will be a good balance of sorts...

ok ok... random thoughts time...
i won't get to vote since no one wants to go against the SM who is chairman(?) for marine parade... then again... i don't really have anything against PAP... i think they have done a good job... not easy pleasing eveyone but nonetheless i think they have managed very well... i'm sorry opposition parties... i have never been in a position where i would have seriously considered casting my vote for the opposition for all my intellectual rebellion... but nonetheless... keep on fighting the good, clean fight yes... don't say anything that would implicate yourselves and i am sure we will see a good contest... who knows... i might even move to a place where i can acutally get to vote... so as it is... i am quite an ignoramus about matters...

what else, what else...
hmmm... haven't been writing for some time... haven't been taking photographs for some time... feel like going for holidays... but not with my family... but cash-strapped... got new... oh shit... need to send out the warranty card... damn... why can't they be like nokia... anyways... yes... i got a new handphone after slightly over 2 years... my nokia 6110 has served me very well indeed... proud, loyal, distinguished service... so before it actually completely dies, i thought i will place it in semi-retirement... it will still be in use from time to time though... it still works and i am still very much used to the interface... in its place is the motorola l7 slvr... nice phone... didn't know how it was like prioir to purchase... i just knew that i had to get it... so yah... no qualms over it... i think it will do just fine...

moving along... moving along... still waiting... still waiting... some weird happenings in class... much ado about nothing... need to clean up room and studio... actually need to vacate the studio since i will be moving down to level1 nest semester... i am really wondering just where the hell am i going to keep all my stuff... procastinating about the room part...

been eating quite a fair bit... though i have no idea where 2 kilos went to... now looking forward to eating more... if i can peel myself off the computer that it... LOTR... it has gotten me... heh...

right... i really need to find more creative ways to spend my 2-month holidays yes... well... errr... yah ok... i'll do that... now... i have to well... eat... heh... later, later, later...

in sight...

2006-04-11T00:45:00.000+08:00

a recent and still on-going interest...

the sky by chance...

make what of it as you please...

i am ages...

2006-03-24T14:37:00.000+08:00

who says i haven't been taking pictures... i still am... just that i don't put them out as regularly as before... but nonetheless... here are some of them...

and yes... no photoshop...

it's been a long time... long time...

2006-02-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

yes... i know... a month... plus??? but really... i'd give the same excuses... plus... you can always monitor my movements from a link on your right... it's quite brainless... plus it's a much nicer blog... you voyeurs you... heh...
anyways... to summarise...

january
school starts... woohoo? busy busy busy... had workshop with some guy from UK (forgot his name sorry... mathias... something...)... really nice... very insightful... much was learned... do a google on mathias and check out his works... very nice indeed...

and my first product for the semester?

stairs not meant to be stepped on... a joke really...

what else happened in january? i can't really remember... somwhere along the line was hari raya haji/korban... but that was uneventful... routine in fact... then there was a star wars exhibition i think... quite expensive... but heck... anything to see a jedi robe yes... generally life was very fine indeed... no qualms...

february
someone turned a year older and wasn't too happy about it... but seriously... aren't we are only as old as we feel? right? yes yes? no? you pessimist you...

hahaha...

was involved in C-DAY (open house) for school... turned out ok... actually had a lot of people coming in to my studio...

what is there to see? really? but nonetheless...

for people who say that they have never seen my recent works... here is... well... one of them... BB Bunny is somewhere on this blog... this is my lighting project as it was during the open house... abit dusty but hey... it still works... and didn't melt or burn when turned on... phew.... but wouldn't it just be cool to have the school burned down during the open house? right? then they would die-die have to finish the new school faster... end-2006... HAH! like real!

then it got real busy with essays and more essays... presentations and more presentations... all to be done in ONE week... ish... but no worries... got a slight mental block at 3am while during an essay marathon but that got resolved thanks to 2 hours of sleep... heh...

so end of term... term break... YEAH RIGHT!!! more like project week... some faculty project for the launching of the Fashion Institute Of Singapore (FIOS)... my initial reaction... 'what the hell... i am in product design!'... but nonetheless... i kept an open mind and hey... i had a very nice time indeed... working with people from fashion design and communication design... and our installation was very nice indeed... very different but effective... most effective i think if i should be so bold as to say... excellent group dynamics in no small part due to the people in it... brilliant people... brilliant...

think people... think...

the concept behind the brilliance... can you figure it out?

family portrait of sorts...

yes samuel... do work!

work it people!

no no... no biting...

our work... come on in!

sexy yah... no idea how but ask sofrie...

group I... just brilliant... crazy too... need i say more? hahaha...

life it is... well... now... back to school as it is... 20 weeks to go to a diploma... no shit please... PLEASE!!! vsc application got through... yayyy!!! ellyza... here i come... heh heh... everything else? well... hmmm.... HMMM...

ok ok... i think i have spent too much time updating... my... blog... (so weird to say that...) so yah... in due time... maybe i will update again... maybe people... maybe... till then... cheers!

Till Kingdom Come...

2006-01-23T08:25:00.000+08:00

Steal my heart and hold my tongue

I feel my time, my time has come
Let me in, unlock the door
I've never felt this way before

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don't know which way I'm going
I don't know which way I've come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you, I've waited all these years

For you I'd wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn't change a single thing

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don't know which way I'm going
I don't know what I'll become

For you I'd wait 'til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me...

seeing off...

2005-12-31T22:07:00.000+08:00

so here it is... the brink of another new year... i just realised that i don't feel older on my birthday... i feel older on NYE... damn... i realised that i haven't been able to let a year pass without doing something mainly because... well... i start feeling older... as silly as it may seems... the truth is... no one gets any younger... 2005 has been a good year... got certain things sorted out... i think i met my resolution spare... well... you know what... istanbul was great... 'balik kampung' was as always... a much needed breather... never fails to get me into a state of 'i don't want to come back to sg'... hahaha... hmmm... school was fine... i got into the course i wanted... and i can safely say that i made the right choice... my new classmates... well... you can't win everything... both rayas were fine... just wish it can be so much better... on a personal level... i am with someone who is the joy of my life now... and yes... i am very well taken care off.... thank you... spiritually... i think i am... well... stagnant... nowhere near where i am supposed to be but i can't say that i am a hopeless case either... most likely only slightly better than last year... financially in dire starits... ie.broke most of the time but hopefully i can get that sorted out with the arrival of some things... heh... mentally... well... i lost that some time ago... hahaha... family wise... well... i think we are closing the year on a nice note... and i think bobok has got somthing to do with that... that's why he is spoilt rotten... hahaha... yes... i have a cat now... yes... after 23 years... most of it spent giving up... techincally it is not mine... it is my brother's but heck... all right... i think i have got to make a move now... i am supposed to be somewhere else really soon... heh heh... nothing too elaborate though... just a simpole outing to see off 2005... so yes... till next time... here is to hopeful 2006... good health and god bless... cheers!

ah yes...

2005-12-27T00:41:00.000+08:00

ok... so i am back as a civillian... heck... i've been back since thursday... just that i have been too damn bloody lazy to update my blog... time primarily spent catching up on lost sleep...
i know some people have been very, very busy while i was away and i told myself that i will address the issue when i get back but since the moment has passed... i think i shall let sleeping dogs lie... i think i can relate the whys... and i don't think that it is appropriate to air out such grieviances here... but please know that i am aware and that my apparent ignorance is only out of courtesy and respect to you as an individual as i know what is like... you are probably not going hear from me but please... i would rather not get there...
so how was reservist? well... it was tiring... definitely... alot of waiting... but on the whole... i think it went along just fine... taken positively, it is generally fun and interesting... people relations are much better this time round... i guess most are much wiser from past ICT (ie.PA) and have learnt to avoid behaving in certain ways... i know i did... heh... maintain beb... maintain... plus it would just be silly to get so worked up during an 18-day stint... so i guess we played it cool...
my troop was fine... we were definitely quieter (by not that much as we had our moments of madness too) than other troops but i think we carried ourselves professionally and we watched out for each other... there was the obvious nonsense and jibing... i wasn't spared myself... but it was all done in good humour with no malicious intent...
so yah... managed to squeeze out $400 in incentives out of the government... so i cannot say it hasn't been financially rewarding (whatever the amount)... spare my fucked up SAR (again for the third time...)... basket... quite disheartening i tell you... not demotivating, not frustrating... but a little disheartening... but nevermind... it won't change anything... i will still give my best if not for myself... than for the country (macam real...)... actually... come to think of it... it is more for the people around me since i keep watching out for others... but it is not a course for regret as i do find pleasure in helping others... just don't climb all over me and all will be fine... i'll skip the part on allegiances... but i think i did fine in that department in 18 days... heh heh... see how lah... see how... nonetheless, i would like to thank those who watched out for me during the 18 days... you know who you are and my gratitude is... as always... eternal...
took a bunch of pictures and whole tape of footage... don't know if i will actually do anything with them considering that the sound on the video is acting up... urgh... must find video head cleaner! heh... i don't know if i should put up any pictures here since i might get into trouble if i put up the wrong pictures and i am having difficulty choosing which i can put up...

somehow i think that this is a safe choice... it's got everyone and it doesn't show anything too incriminating or suggestive... heh heh heh...
don't ask me to list down who is who because granted that i can do such a thing, i don't really know everyone in my troop by name... i know their faces but i don't know their names... some i know but nicknames but don't ask me what their real names are... but yeah... above is my troop... i think everyone is there plus my command element minus one (the one who wrote my SAR...)... nice bunch of people... nice bunch...
so yah... moving on... on the brink of another new year... sigh... there goes another one... it's not a real sigh actually as 2005 has been a reasonably good year for me... very tiring but generally good... spare one ugly event right smack in the middle of it... you know who you are... but really... i do not have major issues with 2005... was watching some tsunami memorial thingy just now... lump in my throat... never fails to shut me up... i still spare a thought for those affected every now and then... hopefully we can see through these next few days of 2005 in relative peace and disaster (natural or otherwise) free... god willing...
ok then... that is it for now... will update again in due time... somehow at the rate i am going... it will be some time... heh... no promises but i will try to get in something before the new year is here...

going... going... gone...

2005-12-05T03:58:00.000+08:00

it has been a while hasn't it? well... it is as such that when i am not occupied, i have been too lazy to blog... but a summary of sorts would be... school holidays starts, busy with raya stuff... then it was raya proper... then i was busy with some work which involves carving brick walls out of styrofoam... quite a painfully done but done nonetheless... then i went to malaysia for raya/wedding... very nice trip indeed... love that place... i intend to retire there some day... came back... got some work to do... namely a programme list for some event... it was quite nice... will put it up on the zilch website.... do check it out here... but the irritating (in no actual adverse manner) was that the event didn't really go as to how it was written on the programme list... not my fault but it does kind of make me look bad if one was to really think about it... then i i got a week of rest with nothing much to do spare a few occassions here and there... have to say i had a nice time at emma's chalet... so now... at 4.05am, i am burning mp3s into cd-rws so that i can take them to camp... yes... my bags are packed and in less than 4 hours time, i will be off for my reservist training... don't want to reveal too much or else i will get into trouble with the government for realeasing sensitive information... hahaha... so yah... there goes 18 days of december... hopefully it will go on just fine without much trouble, politics and all the other shit which i can't really think of at the moment... ah heck... while i am at it... i hope it rains so much during these 18 days that training is cancelled and i have nothing to do... urgh... i am so made just for normal duties... not these kind of specialized units... all right... till whenever... as a parting shot... here's something...

salam lebaran...

2005-11-06T01:58:00.000+08:00

ini ada sikit punya lambat saya tahu... tapi saya tetap ingin mengucapkan pada semua muslimin muslimat yang membaca blog saya ini, selamat menyambut hari raya idilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin... semoga ramadhan yang berlalu telah memberi keinsafan dan semoga syawal yang datang akan membawa kebahagiaan... insyallah...

bazaar geylang 2005 last night...

2005-11-06T01:28:00.000+08:00

despite... will be missed... do come back... cannot be replaced...

woohoo!

2005-10-23T15:19:00.000+08:00

that is what happens when your fingers go through a sanding machine...

one...

2005-10-22T18:41:00.000+08:00

~ exhillarating ~

lights revisited...

2005-10-22T18:19:00.000+08:00

for the last time for some time to come...

sentosa...

2005-10-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

literally...

orchids...

2005-10-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

continued...

BB Bunny...

2005-10-20T18:19:00.000+08:00

ok... so it appears that i do not have to resubmit anything... quite hard to believe... somehow i don't think i can sit too well with this fact... anyways... yadda yadda blah blah... that aside... i logged on only to post this...

meet... BB Bunny...

if you only knew what is behind this bunny...

back and online...

2005-10-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

yup yup... done with my projects and submission... will find out later if i have any resubmission(s) to do... so far so good as i don't have to resubmit anything for my monday modules... high, almost definite possibility of me having to present my designer research ppt as i didn't present it as i came late and YS was being VERY anal that day... it's submitted... but not presented yet... then again... 2/3 of the class came late too and hence didn't get to present either... bummer...

ah yes... the fasting month... haven't really wished all those who are actually (or supposed to be) fasting, 'selamat menjalan ibadah puasa'... so yes... my well wishes go out to each and every one of you who are fasting... although it is half way through by now... unlike last year, i only got 1 fasting well wisher this year... then again... i didn't send out any unlike last year where i sent out quite a number... so i wasn't really expecting any... but it was very nice of fairus to have sent me one...

really feels good to have seen through a semester... and to have the assurance that i am doing fine tops it...

all right... will update more in due time... for now... here is a picture of 'bobok'...

it's up... and it's on!

2005-09-30T22:48:00.000+08:00

yup... it's up people... looks quite bad in the day but at night however, it does look... well... nice... then again... i am biased... i have to admit... i do have a sentimental attachment to these things as they have been around me for as long as i can remember... and with these being the last for some time... the sentiment is only heightened...
as for some people... you know what these all means... i will be stuck with my projets the first 2 weeks though... but i will try...
and yes... i know it has been a while since i posted an entry... no worries though... i will get back to this soon enough... and to everyone who can still feel the child within themselves, happy children's day... i know i still do from time to time... cheers!

orchids...

2005-09-07T03:19:00.000+08:00

one of many shots...

~ Shells ~

2005-09-05T02:26:00.000+08:00

In emotion, in solitude, heartfelt voices whisper
Together across the expanse that lay
In wait holding breath

To uncertainty, to destiny, in rain it was forged
Belonging to forever and all after
Bliss is common fold

For emptiness, for spirituality, it settles upon ourselves
A start with never ending
Hence it remains so

gratitude : eternal

Dare You Dare Not

2005-09-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

Dance devils dance

Tread on ashen grounds

Between the half of the have not

Peace is asleep; curled toes and bleeding nails

Devour Satan do devour

The last remains of sanity

To the embers of the failing light

I shall hold on to my sullen drones

Despair maidens weep on

With mercury-laden tears

Hide the painless ending of forgotten days

Which shall you harbor?

Destroy man destroy

Beneath the ailing waves, above the darken skies

Relish your fleeting triumphs

Once more, maybe we will never ever learn

running around in malacca... (UPDATED!!!)

2005-08-12T14:26:00.000+08:00

had a "study" trip to malacca with my class and my 4 lecturers... personally it was good trip for me... only because i set myself to be positive about the whole trip i guess... so here is how it went... roughly...

couldn't sleep the night before leaving... had to pack my bag... couldn't decide how many t-shirts to carry... and as it will happen, i underpacked... but my bag was already huge from all the other stuff i had to carry... 2 sketchbooks (which ended up not being used at all...), 1 clear plastic folder and 1 big pencil case... add on a huge digital camera to that and you get the idea... my video camera and tripod were not included inside... so you can imagine that i looked absolutely crazy... so i ended up with only 2 hours of sleep... but i figured i can get some shuteye in the bus...

bright (shades on please... ) and early (yes! early!) at lavender mrt station where i met some of my classmates and mustafa... apparently he had been there since 7 and we were supposed to meet at 9... no thanks to someone he says... so yah... so there he was, kept awake by 3 cups of coffee it seems... trudged down to lavendet street to take our bus... everyone else was already there... so... despite being early at lavender mrt, i was as always, fashionably late... hah!

the bus was already there... the red one on the right of the picture... but why we had to wait i have no idea...

uneventfully waited for the bus... there was some camera crew doing something... but non-consequential... boarded bus... sat beside faizal... bus moved off... went through the motions of customs and checkpoint... over at the malaysia side, they actually moved the customs and checkpoint for passenger coaches to another place which is a damn good move on their part so we literally breezed through the entire process since it was... well... empty! (well done malaysia!) slept through the first leg of the trip... woke up when bus turned into yong peng... i still despise the fact that they have to go to such shitty places as a stop-over... for goodness sake, the rest stops along the highway are just fine... even better than most i guess... and thay have to get out of the highway to go to some shitty place just because these places pay them to do so... what the hell! and worse part is that there were 2 of such places... and we actually went to shittier one! goodness...

shittier place but heck... smile!!!

was awake for most of the second leg but everyone was more or less tired so not much happened...

it would be interesting to note that this shot took some degree of patience as you can see that i somewhere in the middle-back of the moving bus...

so we arrived at Melaka Sentral which is as they put it, a terminal, pasar (market) and bazar... not too bad a place... discovered on the trip back that the 'departure' hall looked like airport in cairo... minus the armed guards... but as with most things in malaysia, nice idea, not too well done/executed and bad maintenance... which is a shame as they have alot of nice things... well... we shell see for this one... prove me wrong please!

how grand... keep it nice ok?

now... here comes the irritating part... apparently it was so damn bloody obvious that we are tourists... so the "standar" fare from the bus station to where we were going was RM$15... which i didn't mind paying but some were quite adamant that we could get to where we were going for as low as RM$6... so yeah... because of that... we went out of the cool bus terminal and into the hot, hot, hot sun... it was quite dusty too... silly valerie fell on the steps in front of everybody and provided much laughter... we proceeded to the place where we were apparently going to take the waiting cabs...

so here we were... moving away thinking that we had a cab for 20 people... when there was just 1 lousy cab waiting for us... what the heck! apparently this cab would come back again and pick the rest of us up... but it never did... oh well... we were being very hopeful weren't we? so the cab never came back and we had to wait for 4 more cabs who didn't rip us off out RM$15... mustafa looked like a streewalker while waiting for such cabs but i have thank him for waiting the cabs in the hot sun... so we had to wait...

and we're waiting, we're waiting, we're waiting...

so here we were... waiting for the cabs which went below RM$15 on a road named, of all things, Jalan PMS... which obviously provided much content for jokes...

ridiculous road name...

waited and waited and waited some more... we got bored... we did silly stuff... as evident in the video i took... but here is an example of silly stuff we did...

right... we took pictures of our shoes... the guy with the white socks is garry... he got alot of rubbish for wearing those... with bermudas... hahaha!

ok ok... i got to go and eat now... will continue this... later...

and by the way... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! 23!!! WOOHOO!!! urgh...

ok... so i took 2 weeks to get back to this post... hahaha... busy lah... assesment week... but it was good lah... needed the rush after ambling along for so long... hah... anyways... here is malacca continued...

so yah... we waited for the cabs... i took the second last one with 3 other people... faizal, garry and someone else and maybe samuel... so when we got to the hotel, we got our rooms... samual was already with soemitro, faizal was already with rayyan... so i got garry... hmmm... ok... so we went up to our room which we had some difficulty finding... we were at the very end of the hotel with a balcony outside that was facing out onto the roof... how 'nice'....

the view... or lack of it...

samuel, at the other end, definitely had a better view...

the room was ok lah... but it had no windows... imagine the claustrophobia... not that i am claustrophobic or anything... but we cannot really complain as the room was very cheap... not that it mattered since the school was paying for it... so went around visiting others... got some funky stuff on the video cam... blah blah blah... unpacked... got more stuff on video... then we went down for a briefing of sorts at the courtyard which is the air well, which i find very interesting...

here come the pictures... thing was, i am still learing the intricacies of the camera... so the photos i got were not that satisfactory...

yian sann said something which i didn't really catch since i wasn't paying attention and after that, we were left on our own... running around in malacca...

went to mahkota parade... which was not too bad a mall... most already had shopping on their minds but a more pertinent matter had to be resolved first... we needed food! and lots of it...

so after much thought and consideration, we broke up into smaller groups since not many places could accomodate all of us... some went to some japanese restaurant... me, i went to a pizza place... which was ok... but i was hungry and finished up everything that was meant for me... garry was an absolute glutton...

then the realisation that we were supposed to be back at the hotel at a certain time dawned upon us and we made out way back to the hotel... i was walking around with a pounch...

arrived back at the hotel fashionably late... then went out again with our lecturers to take a look around at the night market... place was quite cool but my main gripe was that everyone was moving along too fast for me to see anything... so i ended up getting left behind... but then i hooked up with mustafa and anusha who were like me, more intent on going around slowly... mustafa, quite like me, was obsessed with taking photos too... so i guess it was a good thing that i hooked up with him... so it was basically just the three of us although every now and then, we'd bump into little groups of my class...

the night market, flea market, whatever...

lanterns...

cannot get shots like this walking around very fast...

we actually had a cufrew... we had to be back in our rooms by 11pm... so at 1030 i started moving back to the hotel (rest house actually)... along the way, bumped into garry... went back to our room, left our stuff and went back out again to get some stuff to eat (ie.groceries)... came back at 1130... hah! so much for the curfew... later that night, a buch of us hanged out in samuel's room... did silly stuff, watched psycho on the tv and ended up scaring ourselves... i came up with a a silly concept about an empty chair which garry is still trying to formulate until today... it rained that night... that just added to the scare factor of the night... i slept thinking that the room was spinning... some... didn't get that much sleep at all... hmmm... i wonder...

something from the 'monster'...

2005-08-12T14:16:00.000+08:00

i call this... the 'national geographic' shot...

introducing... the FZ20...

2005-08-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

my new baby...

everything else... is not good...

2005-08-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

ok... here it is... about the only 'nice' picture of that outing... sorry lah but that night i wasn't in the mood to take pictures...

fireworks...

2005-08-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

beautiful... just beautiful...

then and now...

2005-07-24T03:24:00.000+08:00

on the left, my former class with everyone in it and on the right, my current class with... well... eight people missing...

the rage over fish...

2005-07-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

KNNBCCB... i tell you this... i was so bloody pissed off yesterday (wednesday)...
why? because of the knnbccb LONG JOHN SILVER'S PAYA LEBAR SINGAPORE POST CENTRE outlet lah... nabeh... what's wrong with that place? here's what is wrong...
ok... here i was... craving for long john... so i called my sister and met her there... so yah... we got there at 930pm... when i stepped in the place, i uttered to myself, "ok... i am back... don't piss me off..." i said that because of an earlier incident which resulted me in staying off the long john then of which i will elaborate later... so... proceeded to order combo 2... sister didn't get anything... so yah... ordered... and as always with this outlet... don't know why though... had to wait for the food to be ready... so i thought it was normal lah... i mean... i can spare 5 minutes can't i? not that they said that i had to wait 5 minutes... the guy at the counter just told me to wait and he will send out the food to me... so i waited... and waited... waited... and waited some more... wait and wait... and wait and wait... and guess what? it got to the point that i waited for a whole fucking lot more lah... guess how much more i waited? TWENTY FIVE FUCKING MINUTES!!! WHAT THE FUCK! and it is supposed to be fast food... fast food mak dia punya laki lah... basket... and i wasn't the only one... got two other customers who had to wait for what seemed like eternity to get their food... so much so that when one of them got her food... she questioned as to why the service is so damn slow... but the goondu staff didn't say anything... just kept quiet... and to make thigns worse... the goondu forgot to bring out the drinks, serviettes and condiments... ok... so the condiments are complimentary... but heck... at least have the decency to appease a long-waiting customer... but no... the goondu just quietly went about her duties... not that she was the one to blame actually... i blame it on the stupid manager... this woman... whom while three customers were waiting for their food... she was busy counting the damn money from a closed register... i felt like going up there to tell her that if she kept that up, soon she'll have no money to count... ass... but me being the nice person that i am (some would beg to differ but fuck them...), i did not... it's not a matter of being hum chi or anything... i just do not want to make a scene... so when questioned by my sister... this manager asked the kitchen how much longer it would take... twenty seven seconds they said... twenty seven seconds my balls lah... knn... i mean... if it's going to be slow, might as well be honest about it... no need to bull shit... basket... so when this stupid manager finally decided to come out to explain or apologise, which she didn't have the decency to do so, she said that yes... maybe they should have told us that we would have to wait as it near closing time.... WHAT THE FUCK?! I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK IF YOU ARE GOING TO CLOSE... i mean... i know it's near closing time... but it is not closing time isn't it? and up till the stipulated closing time, i'd expect a reasonable level of service... i mean... i don't think i am such a difficult customer... i know how hard it is it can be at times to please the public... and i can apathise (i do have apathy after all...) with those in the customer service line... but this... this is just horrible... abysmal!
so... after waiting for so long for something quite simple, my food was finally ready... but i could see that from how the staff just dumped the stuff in the plastic bag that she was pissed... but hey... who should be pissed here? asshole... urgh... so yah... one of them came out and handed us the food... no fanfare here... but i tell you this... i am so staying off that particular long john outlet... the thing is... i like long john and i would hate to not like any outlet... but this one gets the thumbs down... all the way down... i mean... the bugis one likes to burn their food... but at least they are much faster... and it's not everytime that they burn their food... this one however... is slow on an alarming frequency... and not that only... here is another incident where the stupidity of the same manager at the same outlet managed to get on my nerves...
to keep it short... luch time... many people... two lines... got into line where manager was attending to the counter... then... without no warning or indication of any sorts, she closed the counter... so... here i am... waiting like a moron at the head of the line because it was supposed to be my turn... and she just walks off into her office to do something else more important... what the flying fuck!? so after enquring as to what the hell happened... she said that the line was closed and she asked me not to mind but join the other queue which by now even longer than before... what the hell!!! as such... i left the place altogether... knn... telling myself to stay off that place... one month later... i came back and i got the crap mentioned above... babi habis...
i can be very forgiving to people in the customer service line... in fact... at the very same long john, i was reasonably forgiving to one of the staff as it was her first day on the job and she was having some difficulty taking orders... i told her to take her time and that i don't mind her being abit slow as long as she got the order right... not that i expect them to remember my kindness... i don't even expect them to remember me even though i am a regular customer there... but hey... even if i have never been as kind before or i am not a regular customer, i don't think i deserve that kind of service... urgh... irritating...
so yah... for an indefinite period of time... i am staying off that particular long john silver's... not that i encourage you do so... but for your own piece of mind... you know what to do... i am thinking of complaining to the management and get the manager at the outlet relieved of her duties... but i don't think i will actually get down to doing so... although... well... you'd never know... you'd never know...

week; madness... but hey... it beats doing NOTHING!!!

2005-07-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

what a crazy week it has been... running all over the place...
monday - school... damn my weird lunch times... got my first assignment... make a hot wire foam cutter... group project... we had one week to do it... oh wow...
tuesday - sepatutnya no school... but got workshop inductions... uneventful...
wednesday - school... late as always... lecturer never asked for essay which took me one night to do... blood, sweat and tears go to waste... well... not really blood, sweat and tears... but i out in alot of effort you know... sial betul... buang masa remaja aku aje... grrr... went out to eat at night as it was me dad's b'day...
thursday - another workshop induction... woke up early wanting to not be late... so here i am... all ready to go to school at 9am... then i checked the time for the induction that i had written down... 1pm... checked with classmates... really at 1pm... knnbccb... basket... couldn't sleep... posted the entry about the makan trip...
after induction, started project... didn't get very far... but a small step is a step nontheless...
friday - oh how i hate going to school on friday... why? because i have to accomodate (?) the fact that i will be going for friday prayers... left home for sim lim tower to get some parts... met some classmates there... then we proceeded to school to get to work on the project... had quite an interesting time doing the porject... realised that my group's foam cutter was the smallest of the lot... all the others were quite big and one was huge! left school... meet friend... eat at cavana (marina)... orders got mixed up... but i wasn't bitching about it... black pepper chicken pun black pepper chicken lah... dah kebulur... thing is... i did question as to since when teriyaki chicken got pineapple...
after makan... go bay beats... ok lah... bands were good i guess... except for a band named 'my squared circle'... cool name but quite bad lah... almost all their songs sound the same... and how the hell they got categorised as an alternative/indie band i have no idea... just because you have quiet moments in a song does not make you alternative or indie... and the thing was that they performed after 'b-quartet' performed and they (b-quartet) were very good... kalau aku jadi dia orang (my squared circle), aku malu seh... now... b-quartet... that's alternative/indie (whatever)... i am thinking of getting their ep when it comes out end of this month... if i knew where to get it lah...
ok... here comes another stunted entry... now... hungry... want to eat... will continue later...
ok... so i am back... 3 hours later... heh... in front of me... a bottle of coke and a pack of peanut butter m&m's... i like those best...
anyways... as i was saying...
here is a picture of b-quartet performing on friday... didn't see anyone i knew there... just saw a bunch of people whom i know are from the same school...

so that was friday...
saturday was madness...
woke up early... finished up cousin's banner... rushed to printers... thank god it was open... took forever to print... upon getting to the location... the event was over... basket... but nevermind that...
then... here comes the pain... i took bus service number 16 from bukit merah... which plies through orchard... and to my horror... jam! knn... why? NE show mah... makkau! sit inside the bus 45 mins along orchard rd... pantat sakit siol! leg also cramp...but still ok lah... i had a good sleep inside the bus although at one point of time, a woman sat next to me and she started eating a pizza bun... and thing is... i was hungry... shit man... she kept eating and eating and eating but she wasn't fat! damn me for stereotyping... so sue me... hahahaha! (fuck off you bitch major!!!) still never mind... buay (knn.. it's spelt boleh you ignoramusus...) tahan one... then hit the road diversions... the driver apparently wasn't told of where to go and which routes to take with the road diversions in effect... so here is... turning into the link from kallang to mountbaten... and guess what?! the road is closed... so here we go... one round to get back to kallang where he correctly turned in the newly opened road of which i don't know the name... yet... wah... ok lah... i thought reaching already... but no!!! basket... had to make one damn big round around the national stadium... only then can i alight and take my leisurely walk to school... of which along the way... i saw a tank... a cute tank...

so yah... finally reached school... group members were nice enough not to persecute me... and had a decent time doing my hot-wire foam-cutter...

after there was nothing much to do with it... i left school to meet up with the usual suspects... accompanied liza to a survey which pays but didn't need guys... sexist asses... then had dinner wit I JO and liza @ BK after which we took a walk around the tg pagar entertainment area... hint hint... but... it was closed... then aisah came... met her at maxwell... she was stamping her feet while walking... the fact that we were all over the place didn't help... after that... we went around taking pictures... liza... as always... is my ever willing model... hahaha...

sunday... sit at home... rot... finally... i get to do absolutely nothing! wohoo!
and yes... finally... i finished writing this entry... i think i had more in mind... but i lost it... it's wednesday now... i started on sunday... hahahaha...

urgh...

2005-07-16T00:22:00.000+08:00

this is what my friendster horor-scope reads;

The Bottom Line

Circle your self's center. It beats being off-center. Later, you'll get centered!

In Detail

Being put in a position of authority isn't anything new for you. You're so used to it that you can take one quick glance at a situation and know exactly what needs to be done, who needs to be put in charge of which department, and who shouldn't be allowed to do anything without supervision. So now, when you're approached by someone who needs your leadership qualities, you won't hesitate, which means that congratulations will soon be in order.

urgh... i mean... it's not that i believe that someone or something can actually see into the future... especially mine... nie mesti setan peh kerja tau... but sometimes, the coincedence is just too glaring and begs a certain degree of questioning and introspection... ah heck... i mean... what's new right? for those who know me that is... but seriously... sometimes... i just want to take the back seat... but when i actually get to take the back seat... i get restless and fidgety and i want to be in control again... tak tentu arah seh... tak thau mana nak letak nie tangan... takde idea lagi lepas tu gi bunuh nyamuk... i have no idea where i got this tendency from... i guess i just got tired of having to wait for people i guess... the need to get down to doing something... the drive to move... blah, blah, blah... not a very nice position to be in but i guess i have to live with it... babi seh...

makan trip to bedok corner...

2005-07-14T09:56:00.000+08:00

occassion: daddy's birthday...
location: bedok corner... first time there...
disposition: hah?! bedok? takde tempat lain ke?
ambience: ok ok lah... cannot really make noise one...
speed @ which food arrived: fine with me...
how's the food? (most important!): as below...

the shop: ali's bbq (ada 'gila makan' punya cert seh... fuyoh!)
apa ini?: sotong something something... i just eat...
verdict: can lah... the sotong a bit small though... the sambal is... well... i've had better...

the shop: not important... but they were blasting boat quay inspired music... yucko...
apa ini?: satay lah... buta ke?
verdict: it was good lah... surprisingly, the meat was kind of in between medium rare and well done... which is kind of the way i like it...

foreground...
the shop: errr... who cares...
apa ini?: bbq chix and tandoori chix...
verdict: the bbq chix were bad... chix didn't taste fresh... the tandooris was according to sister, better... but i didn't eat them...

background...
the shop: ali's bbq
apa ini: sting ray...
verdict: best thing had there... quite good actually but the sambal take kick sangat lah... $16 for something that size... ok lah...

the shop: ali's bbq again...
apa ini: lala (kepah in malay... don't know ape dia in english...)
verdict: no no... i still want my newton... quite bad lah this one... there goes my cholesterol levels... but not worth it sia... it wasn't nice... small and gooey... i swore i was going to get food poisoning or something but nothing so far... sambal? what sambal? oh... you mean that watery thing at the base? really? urgh... forgetable... very...

the shop: do i need to say?
apa ini?: prawn in the same sambal as the sting ray?
verdict: nice big, succulent prawns... quite fresh too... quite good... sambal looks hot... but it isn't... so all those people who want to pretend that they can take hot stuff... this is for you...

my sister and brother in the same picture... wow... heh heh heh...

anyways... overall... i think it was ok lah...had some good stuff... had some not-so-good stuff... place is quite small and the location is kind of weird if you have no idea where it is on the first place... seats are quite limited and the cleaners there take some time to clean up the tables... but it was cleaned well lah... then again... it was probably later and the cleaners were tired... no worries... and if you are coming in a cab from bedok south... please don't stop at the bend... firstly it's dangerous (especially at night) and secondly... it's a one lane road with a divider in the middle... so when you stop, no one can pass you... hence a pile up will most likely occur... and honk some people will... ish... overall... i will give the place a 6/10... there were probably better food around but i wasn't too inclined to like the place and try new things... although they did a nice job renovating it... a bit closed in... but passable... ah hell... i still want my newton... i miss the lala there... damn cholesterol... bummer...

oh oh... here we go... (wowowowowowowowowo!!!)

2005-07-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

week one down... what have i done? nothing... well.. not exactly nothing... but nothing that is quite remotely related to school that is...
my class... my class... is.. ok i guess... a bit on the quiet side... which i guess is normal for any 'new' class...
i offically have classes for only 2 days a week... but i am not really betting on the 'free' days staying free... as it is... tomorrow is tuesday and it is supposed to be a 'free' day but as it is, i have a workshop induction... not really complaining though... at least we are finally getting down to work proper... i mean... if compared to other courses, i think mine is quite slack... i know the people over at communication design are under the prussure of alot of assignments already... the people over at animation already have a trailer to submit... and i'll to tell you this... doing animation can be such a pain... the people over at interior design were having outdoor drawings right on the first day of school...
as for me... well... my class have been doing alot of discussion... that's about it... thing is i am perfectly fine with it... but i always have this fear that people will hate me for talking too much because other than me, only one other student talks... well... now there is another one... but it will take some time for me to take him too seriously... but i am trying to take everyone seriously... at least within the confines of the class i am... thing is... sometimes... i want to really discuss/argue about something but i put myself on hold as i know that quite a few are hoping that the class would end really soon... it's quite sad but i guess i would have to accomodate them... for now... all the other nonsense can come at a later time...
my lecturers are... well... fine i guess... i have a funny feeling that they will be expecting much from me... well... bring it on i'd say...
and as for those who are wondering of i am getting alog fine with the malays in my class... well... truth is... not yet... hopefully things will get better but before that i would have to settle some personal demons... i have yet to find my malay tongue though and i actually have to make a conscious effort to speak malay... damn lah...
i am hopeful that i can find people as good as evil people but i don't think that i am being fair if i impose expectations so i am trying to keep an open mind... but i guess it is easier said than done and i still look for them whenever i can although it is getting increasingly difficult with our massively different timetables... hopefully i wouldn't have to depend too much on their company as it would only serve to make me distance myself from the rest of my new class...
so yes... i shall remain hopeful... as of the time being...
right... here is another entry where i started it, did something and then came back to finish it... i started writing this on monday night... then @ 1130pm, my friend called me and told me to go down... he called me earlier to tell that his motorbike is out of the paintshop... why am i so interested in his motorbike? well... it's because i designed it... yes... me... i can design just about anything that needs to be designed... explains why my namecard (link @ sidebar) puts there design and photos... i couldn't decide what type of designing i did... so i just put design... heh...
so yes... now i am back after taking photos of his motorbike... it's sweet i tell you... orange, grey, purple and white... though it still remains that as much as possible, i stay off motorbikes... but the thing with this friend of mine is... he's a bit of a wild rider but he knows what he's doing... so i never quite did feel that i was in much danger... but that was then... now... even though he knows what he's doing... i still have my reservations for motorbikes... but it's nice lah... the motorbike... here's a pic... excuse the street lights....

by the way... here is a logo i did for kris's uncle who is setting up a company and needs a logo... please tell me you can see the letters G, P and S... ah heck... i know the G is hard to see... but it is actually the face of the lion... but it's cool right? well... i think it is... this job pays quite nicely though... although by any designing standards, i am still charging very, very low prices... but don't expect it to last very long though... heh...

back to the topic of school... i forsee this to be a very busy week... i've got workshop inductions on 2 of my 3 free days... i actually had to cancel a road trip of sorts with my cousin due to this... bummer... was looking forward to it... i have a bunch of banners, posters and flyers to design... i have to get them printed by friday of which earlier on in the day i have to meet up with my cousin to discuss a project he is doing... then on saturday i have to help my cousin out with another project of his @ bukit merah view... urgh... why am i being so nice i don't know... but hell... he's family... shucks...
so yah... wish me energy and ideas and i shall i will post again when i can... by the way... this is me... at a friends' chalet doing what i do best... any guesses as to what i was doing?

something of nothing...

2005-07-07T11:55:00.000+08:00

i have classes 2 days in a week...
i don't think i should be complaining...
i think though that course in due time will be more stimulating than this...
i should be happy...

went to my school library just now...
it feels good to be surrounded by so much information that can be harnessed into the magic that is art...

in my never-ending pursuit of trying to make sense of my purpose in art (instead of the purpose of art for me), these quotes struck me...

"it is in this power of saying everything, and yet not saying nothing too plainly, that is the perfection of art... consist"
john ruskin

"we spend our days, each one of us, in looking for the secret of life"

"well, the secret of life is in art"
oscar wilde

personally... i am just looking for a matra for the term/season... something to work on...

back to school... back to life as it is?

2005-07-04T01:09:00.000+08:00

yes... i'll be back in school proper in a couple of hours time... i will be in a new class though... 16 people... 4 malays... 1 chinese muslim... (i think...) out of the 4 malays... 2 girls and 2 guys... (me inclusive...) hope my new class will be fine... i know i don't exactly have the most sociable face but hey... i've made some great friends along the way haven't i? although... due to the fact that about the only other malay guy in my class quit school, i mixed around with chinese... and due to that, i might face some difficulty of having to interact with malays again... hahaha... hopefully it's just me and my paranoia...
so yah... product design... honestly... i have no idea what i will be doing... will it be quite the same as doing fine arts related stuff? or will be an entirely new thing altogether? something that hopefully won't give me such a culture shock... i know i gave some reasons (read earlier posts) as to why i decided on it... but personally... i have never quite done anything quite like it... except maybe during a certain point of time when i was designing shoes at an incredible rate... hmmm... maybe i will end up designing shoes... it is a product isn't it? hmmm... interesting... well... we shall see how it goes... and hopefully... true to why i intially (maybe not that initially... maybe slightly later on...) have a blog in the first place, it will become an online gallery of my works of sorts... no promises though... really dependant on my workload and my mood... hasn't it always been that way? heh heh...
ok then... this shall be it for now i guess... wish me luck... and wish me money too... i desperately need it now... hahaha... cheers!

...

here's something for posterity... my last work as a foundation student... titled "ubin lost rythm", to me it represents the culmination of the year together with the evil people... namely eugene, evelyn, kevin, kai and fabian... although fabian is not in this picture as he had to leave early... to you guys... i am very proud of what we have achieved individually and together... and i am very proud that we stuck with each other evey step of the way... it has been my personal honour to work with you guys and i looked forward to going to school everyday because of you guys... you guys somehow made me young again and for that i cannot thank you guys enough... may we never perish... and may fortune and success not be shy to you...

oh...

2005-07-02T02:09:00.000+08:00

aceh...
(from jepun's blog... visit her blog for more...)