then and now...

on the left, my former class with everyone in it and on the right, my current class with... well... eight people missing...

the rage over fish...

KNNBCCB... i tell you this... i was so bloody pissed off yesterday (wednesday)...
why? because of the knnbccb LONG JOHN SILVER'S PAYA LEBAR SINGAPORE POST CENTRE outlet lah... nabeh... what's wrong with that place? here's what is wrong...
ok... here i was... craving for long john... so i called my sister and met her there... so yah... we got there at 930pm... when i stepped in the place, i uttered to myself, "ok... i am back... don't piss me off..." i said that because of an earlier incident which resulted me in staying off the long john then of which i will elaborate later... so... proceeded to order combo 2... sister didn't get anything... so yah... ordered... and as always with this outlet... don't know why though... had to wait for the food to be ready... so i thought it was normal lah... i mean... i can spare 5 minutes can't i? not that they said that i had to wait 5 minutes... the guy at the counter just told me to wait and he will send out the food to me... so i waited... and waited... waited... and waited some more... wait and wait... and wait and wait... and guess what? it got to the point that i waited for a whole fucking lot more lah... guess how much more i waited? TWENTY FIVE FUCKING MINUTES!!! WHAT THE FUCK! and it is supposed to be fast food... fast food mak dia punya laki lah... basket... and i wasn't the only one... got two other customers who had to wait for what seemed like eternity to get their food... so much so that when one of them got her food... she questioned as to why the service is so damn slow... but the goondu staff didn't say anything... just kept quiet... and to make thigns worse... the goondu forgot to bring out the drinks, serviettes and condiments... ok... so the condiments are complimentary... but heck... at least have the decency to appease a long-waiting customer... but no... the goondu just quietly went about her duties... not that she was the one to blame actually... i blame it on the stupid manager... this woman... whom while three customers were waiting for their food... she was busy counting the damn money from a closed register... i felt like going up there to tell her that if she kept that up, soon she'll have no money to count... ass... but me being the nice person that i am (some would beg to differ but fuck them...), i did not... it's not a matter of being hum chi or anything... i just do not want to make a scene... so when questioned by my sister... this manager asked the kitchen how much longer it would take... twenty seven seconds they said... twenty seven seconds my balls lah... knn... i mean... if it's going to be slow, might as well be honest about it... no need to bull shit... basket... so when this stupid manager finally decided to come out to explain or apologise, which she didn't have the decency to do so, she said that yes... maybe they should have told us that we would have to wait as it near closing time.... WHAT THE FUCK?! I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK IF YOU ARE GOING TO CLOSE... i mean... i know it's near closing time... but it is not closing time isn't it? and up till the stipulated closing time, i'd expect a reasonable level of service... i mean... i don't think i am such a difficult customer... i know how hard it is it can be at times to please the public... and i can apathise (i do have apathy after all...) with those in the customer service line... but this... this is just horrible... abysmal!
so... after waiting for so long for something quite simple, my food was finally ready... but i could see that from how the staff just dumped the stuff in the plastic bag that she was pissed... but hey... who should be pissed here? asshole... urgh... so yah... one of them came out and handed us the food... no fanfare here... but i tell you this... i am so staying off that particular long john outlet... the thing is... i like long john and i would hate to not like any outlet... but this one gets the thumbs down... all the way down... i mean... the bugis one likes to burn their food... but at least they are much faster... and it's not everytime that they burn their food... this one however... is slow on an alarming frequency... and not that only... here is another incident where the stupidity of the same manager at the same outlet managed to get on my nerves...
to keep it short... luch time... many people... two lines... got into line where manager was attending to the counter... then... without no warning or indication of any sorts, she closed the counter... so... here i am... waiting like a moron at the head of the line because it was supposed to be my turn... and she just walks off into her office to do something else more important... what the flying fuck!? so after enquring as to what the hell happened... she said that the line was closed and she asked me not to mind but join the other queue which by now even longer than before... what the hell!!! as such... i left the place altogether... knn... telling myself to stay off that place... one month later... i came back and i got the crap mentioned above... babi habis...
i can be very forgiving to people in the customer service line... in fact... at the very same long john, i was reasonably forgiving to one of the staff as it was her first day on the job and she was having some difficulty taking orders... i told her to take her time and that i don't mind her being abit slow as long as she got the order right... not that i expect them to remember my kindness... i don't even expect them to remember me even though i am a regular customer there... but hey... even if i have never been as kind before or i am not a regular customer, i don't think i deserve that kind of service... urgh... irritating...
so yah... for an indefinite period of time... i am staying off that particular long john silver's... not that i encourage you do so... but for your own piece of mind... you know what to do... i am thinking of complaining to the management and get the manager at the outlet relieved of her duties... but i don't think i will actually get down to doing so... although... well... you'd never know... you'd never know...

week; madness... but hey... it beats doing NOTHING!!!

what a crazy week it has been... running all over the place...
monday - school... damn my weird lunch times... got my first assignment... make a hot wire foam cutter... group project... we had one week to do it... oh wow...
tuesday - sepatutnya no school... but got workshop inductions... uneventful...
wednesday - school... late as always... lecturer never asked for essay which took me one night to do... blood, sweat and tears go to waste... well... not really blood, sweat and tears... but i out in alot of effort you know... sial betul... buang masa remaja aku aje... grrr... went out to eat at night as it was me dad's b'day...
thursday - another workshop induction... woke up early wanting to not be late... so here i am... all ready to go to school at 9am... then i checked the time for the induction that i had written down... 1pm... checked with classmates... really at 1pm... knnbccb... basket... couldn't sleep... posted the entry about the makan trip...
after induction, started project... didn't get very far... but a small step is a step nontheless...
friday - oh how i hate going to school on friday... why? because i have to accomodate (?) the fact that i will be going for friday prayers... left home for sim lim tower to get some parts... met some classmates there... then we proceeded to school to get to work on the project... had quite an interesting time doing the porject... realised that my group's foam cutter was the smallest of the lot... all the others were quite big and one was huge! left school... meet friend... eat at cavana (marina)... orders got mixed up... but i wasn't bitching about it... black pepper chicken pun black pepper chicken lah... dah kebulur... thing is... i did question as to since when teriyaki chicken got pineapple...
after makan... go bay beats... ok lah... bands were good i guess... except for a band named 'my squared circle'... cool name but quite bad lah... almost all their songs sound the same... and how the hell they got categorised as an alternative/indie band i have no idea... just because you have quiet moments in a song does not make you alternative or indie... and the thing was that they performed after 'b-quartet' performed and they (b-quartet) were very good... kalau aku jadi dia orang (my squared circle), aku malu seh... now... b-quartet... that's alternative/indie (whatever)... i am thinking of getting their ep when it comes out end of this month... if i knew where to get it lah...
ok... here comes another stunted entry... now... hungry... want to eat... will continue later...
ok... so i am back... 3 hours later... heh... in front of me... a bottle of coke and a pack of peanut butter m&m's... i like those best...
anyways... as i was saying...
here is a picture of b-quartet performing on friday... didn't see anyone i knew there... just saw a bunch of people whom i know are from the same school...



















so that was friday...
saturday was madness...
woke up early... finished up cousin's banner... rushed to printers... thank god it was open... took forever to print... upon getting to the location... the event was over... basket... but nevermind that...
then... here comes the pain... i took bus service number 16 from bukit merah... which plies through orchard... and to my horror... jam! knn... why? NE show mah... makkau! sit inside the bus 45 mins along orchard rd... pantat sakit siol! leg also cramp...but still ok lah... i had a good sleep inside the bus although at one point of time, a woman sat next to me and she started eating a pizza bun... and thing is... i was hungry... shit man... she kept eating and eating and eating but she wasn't fat! damn me for stereotyping... so sue me... hahahaha! (fuck off you bitch major!!!) still never mind... buay (knn.. it's spelt boleh you ignoramusus...) tahan one... then hit the road diversions... the driver apparently wasn't told of where to go and which routes to take with the road diversions in effect... so here is... turning into the link from kallang to mountbaten... and guess what?! the road is closed... so here we go... one round to get back to kallang where he correctly turned in the newly opened road of which i don't know the name... yet... wah... ok lah... i thought reaching already... but no!!! basket... had to make one damn big round around the national stadium... only then can i alight and take my leisurely walk to school... of which along the way... i saw a tank... a cute tank...



















so yah... finally reached school... group members were nice enough not to persecute me... and had a decent time doing my hot-wire foam-cutter...



















after there was nothing much to do with it... i left school to meet up with the usual suspects... accompanied liza to a survey which pays but didn't need guys... sexist asses... then had dinner wit I JO and liza @ BK after which we took a walk around the tg pagar entertainment area... hint hint... but... it was closed... then aisah came... met her at maxwell... she was stamping her feet while walking... the fact that we were all over the place didn't help... after that... we went around taking pictures... liza... as always... is my ever willing model... hahaha...


































































sunday... sit at home... rot... finally... i get to do absolutely nothing! wohoo!
and yes... finally... i finished writing this entry... i think i had more in mind... but i lost it... it's wednesday now... i started on sunday... hahahaha...

urgh...

this is what my friendster horor-scope reads;

The Bottom Line

Circle your self's center. It beats being off-center. Later, you'll get centered!

In Detail

Being put in a position of authority isn't anything new for you. You're so used to it that you can take one quick glance at a situation and know exactly what needs to be done, who needs to be put in charge of which department, and who shouldn't be allowed to do anything without supervision. So now, when you're approached by someone who needs your leadership qualities, you won't hesitate, which means that congratulations will soon be in order.

urgh... i mean... it's not that i believe that someone or something can actually see into the future... especially mine... nie mesti setan peh kerja tau... but sometimes, the coincedence is just too glaring and begs a certain degree of questioning and introspection... ah heck... i mean... what's new right? for those who know me that is... but seriously... sometimes... i just want to take the back seat... but when i actually get to take the back seat... i get restless and fidgety and i want to be in control again... tak tentu arah seh... tak thau mana nak letak nie tangan... takde idea lagi lepas tu gi bunuh nyamuk... i have no idea where i got this tendency from... i guess i just got tired of having to wait for people i guess... the need to get down to doing something... the drive to move... blah, blah, blah... not a very nice position to be in but i guess i have to live with it... babi seh...

makan trip to bedok corner...

occassion: daddy's birthday...
location: bedok corner... first time there...
disposition: hah?! bedok? takde tempat lain ke?
ambience: ok ok lah... cannot really make noise one...
speed @ which food arrived: fine with me...
how's the food? (most important!): as below...





















the shop: ali's bbq (ada 'gila makan' punya cert seh... fuyoh!)
apa ini?: sotong something something... i just eat...
verdict: can lah... the sotong a bit small though... the sambal is... well... i've had better...





















the shop: not important... but they were blasting boat quay inspired music... yucko...
apa ini?: satay lah... buta ke?
verdict: it was good lah... surprisingly, the meat was kind of in between medium rare and well done... which is kind of the way i like it...





















foreground...
the shop: errr... who cares...
apa ini?: bbq chix and tandoori chix...
verdict: the bbq chix were bad... chix didn't taste fresh... the tandooris was according to sister, better... but i didn't eat them...

background...
the shop: ali's bbq
apa ini: sting ray...
verdict: best thing had there... quite good actually but the sambal take kick sangat lah... $16 for something that size... ok lah...




























the shop: ali's bbq again...
apa ini: lala (kepah in malay... don't know ape dia in english...)
verdict: no no... i still want my newton... quite bad lah this one... there goes my cholesterol levels... but not worth it sia... it wasn't nice... small and gooey... i swore i was going to get food poisoning or something but nothing so far... sambal? what sambal? oh... you mean that watery thing at the base? really? urgh... forgetable... very...




























the shop: do i need to say?
apa ini?: prawn in the same sambal as the sting ray?
verdict: nice big, succulent prawns... quite fresh too... quite good... sambal looks hot... but it isn't... so all those people who want to pretend that they can take hot stuff... this is for you...





















my sister and brother in the same picture... wow... heh heh heh...

anyways... overall... i think it was ok lah...had some good stuff... had some not-so-good stuff... place is quite small and the location is kind of weird if you have no idea where it is on the first place... seats are quite limited and the cleaners there take some time to clean up the tables... but it was cleaned well lah... then again... it was probably later and the cleaners were tired... no worries... and if you are coming in a cab from bedok south... please don't stop at the bend... firstly it's dangerous (especially at night) and secondly... it's a one lane road with a divider in the middle... so when you stop, no one can pass you... hence a pile up will most likely occur... and honk some people will... ish... overall... i will give the place a 6/10... there were probably better food around but i wasn't too inclined to like the place and try new things... although they did a nice job renovating it... a bit closed in... but passable... ah hell... i still want my newton... i miss the lala there... damn cholesterol... bummer...

oh oh... here we go... (wowowowowowowowowo!!!)

week one down... what have i done? nothing... well.. not exactly nothing... but nothing that is quite remotely related to school that is...
my class... my class... is.. ok i guess... a bit on the quiet side... which i guess is normal for any 'new' class...
i offically have classes for only 2 days a week... but i am not really betting on the 'free' days staying free... as it is... tomorrow is tuesday and it is supposed to be a 'free' day but as it is, i have a workshop induction... not really complaining though... at least we are finally getting down to work proper... i mean... if compared to other courses, i think mine is quite slack... i know the people over at communication design are under the prussure of alot of assignments already... the people over at animation already have a trailer to submit... and i'll to tell you this... doing animation can be such a pain... the people over at interior design were having outdoor drawings right on the first day of school...
as for me... well... my class have been doing alot of discussion... that's about it... thing is i am perfectly fine with it... but i always have this fear that people will hate me for talking too much because other than me, only one other student talks... well... now there is another one... but it will take some time for me to take him too seriously... but i am trying to take everyone seriously... at least within the confines of the class i am... thing is... sometimes... i want to really discuss/argue about something but i put myself on hold as i know that quite a few are hoping that the class would end really soon... it's quite sad but i guess i would have to accomodate them... for now... all the other nonsense can come at a later time...
my lecturers are... well... fine i guess... i have a funny feeling that they will be expecting much from me... well... bring it on i'd say...
and as for those who are wondering of i am getting alog fine with the malays in my class... well... truth is... not yet... hopefully things will get better but before that i would have to settle some personal demons... i have yet to find my malay tongue though and i actually have to make a conscious effort to speak malay... damn lah...
i am hopeful that i can find people as good as evil people but i don't think that i am being fair if i impose expectations so i am trying to keep an open mind... but i guess it is easier said than done and i still look for them whenever i can although it is getting increasingly difficult with our massively different timetables... hopefully i wouldn't have to depend too much on their company as it would only serve to make me distance myself from the rest of my new class...
so yes... i shall remain hopeful... as of the time being...
right... here is another entry where i started it, did something and then came back to finish it... i started writing this on monday night... then @ 1130pm, my friend called me and told me to go down... he called me earlier to tell that his motorbike is out of the paintshop... why am i so interested in his motorbike? well... it's because i designed it... yes... me... i can design just about anything that needs to be designed... explains why my namecard (link @ sidebar) puts there design and photos... i couldn't decide what type of designing i did... so i just put design... heh...
so yes... now i am back after taking photos of his motorbike... it's sweet i tell you... orange, grey, purple and white... though it still remains that as much as possible, i stay off motorbikes... but the thing with this friend of mine is... he's a bit of a wild rider but he knows what he's doing... so i never quite did feel that i was in much danger... but that was then... now... even though he knows what he's doing... i still have my reservations for motorbikes... but it's nice lah... the motorbike... here's a pic... excuse the street lights....

by the way... here is a logo i did for kris's uncle who is setting up a company and needs a logo... please tell me you can see the letters G, P and S... ah heck... i know the G is hard to see... but it is actually the face of the lion... but it's cool right? well... i think it is... this job pays quite nicely though... although by any designing standards, i am still charging very, very low prices... but don't expect it to last very long though... heh...


back to the topic of school... i forsee this to be a very busy week... i've got workshop inductions on 2 of my 3 free days... i actually had to cancel a road trip of sorts with my cousin due to this... bummer... was looking forward to it... i have a bunch of banners, posters and flyers to design... i have to get them printed by friday of which earlier on in the day i have to meet up with my cousin to discuss a project he is doing... then on saturday i have to help my cousin out with another project of his @ bukit merah view... urgh... why am i being so nice i don't know... but hell... he's family... shucks...
so yah... wish me energy and ideas and i shall i will post again when i can... by the way... this is me... at a friends' chalet doing what i do best... any guesses as to what i was doing?

something of nothing...

i have classes 2 days in a week...
i don't think i should be complaining...
i think though that course in due time will be more stimulating than this...
i should be happy...

went to my school library just now...
it feels good to be surrounded by so much information that can be harnessed into the magic that is art...

in my never-ending pursuit of trying to make sense of my purpose in art (instead of the purpose of art for me), these quotes struck me...

"it is in this power of saying everything, and yet not saying nothing too plainly, that is the perfection of art... consist"
john ruskin

"we spend our days, each one of us, in looking for the secret of life"

"well, the secret of life is in art"
oscar wilde


personally... i am just looking for a matra for the term/season... something to work on...

back to school... back to life as it is?

yes... i'll be back in school proper in a couple of hours time... i will be in a new class though... 16 people... 4 malays... 1 chinese muslim... (i think...) out of the 4 malays... 2 girls and 2 guys... (me inclusive...) hope my new class will be fine... i know i don't exactly have the most sociable face but hey... i've made some great friends along the way haven't i? although... due to the fact that about the only other malay guy in my class quit school, i mixed around with chinese... and due to that, i might face some difficulty of having to interact with malays again... hahaha... hopefully it's just me and my paranoia...
so yah... product design... honestly... i have no idea what i will be doing... will it be quite the same as doing fine arts related stuff? or will be an entirely new thing altogether? something that hopefully won't give me such a culture shock... i know i gave some reasons (read earlier posts) as to why i decided on it... but personally... i have never quite done anything quite like it... except maybe during a certain point of time when i was designing shoes at an incredible rate... hmmm... maybe i will end up designing shoes... it is a product isn't it? hmmm... interesting... well... we shall see how it goes... and hopefully... true to why i intially (maybe not that initially... maybe slightly later on...) have a blog in the first place, it will become an online gallery of my works of sorts... no promises though... really dependant on my workload and my mood... hasn't it always been that way? heh heh...
ok then... this shall be it for now i guess... wish me luck... and wish me money too... i desperately need it now... hahaha... cheers!

...

here's something for posterity... my last work as a foundation student... titled "ubin lost rythm", to me it represents the culmination of the year together with the evil people... namely eugene, evelyn, kevin, kai and fabian... although fabian is not in this picture as he had to leave early... to you guys... i am very proud of what we have achieved individually and together... and i am very proud that we stuck with each other evey step of the way... it has been my personal honour to work with you guys and i looked forward to going to school everyday because of you guys... you guys somehow made me young again and for that i cannot thank you guys enough... may we never perish... and may fortune and success not be shy to you...

oh...

aceh...
(from jepun's blog... visit her blog for more...)

plea of sorts...

is it ok if i solicit funds from the net? if it is deemed soliciting at all? will i get into trouble? will there be people coming to my house to take me away to jail?
well... here goes...
i have this thing... some donation thingy... i was supposed to have submitted it on JUNE 30th... but trouble is... i have yet to collect a single cent... so... if any kind soul out there want to help me... please get back to me ok... thanks... by the way... it's for NKF(singapore)... i will hopefully write out an e-mail asking them to give me... say... 2 more weeks?
yeah... i'm a sucker...

melayu punya bersyen...

hahaha... talking about friendster, check this out... kawan-ster... cool in a twisted way...

do you really want to be crazy?

yah... really... as in crazy... really crazy... well... alot of people actually think that they are that way...
boredom and it's sour advocates has turned me somewhat into a blog-hopper and friendster-profile-scourer of sorts... it's pathetic but school starts next week and i will miss these times... so yah... here i am going through countless friendster profiles for the mere perverse fun of it and i noticed that quite a number of people actually described themselves as crazy... so here is a classic "HMMM!!!" moment... as in really? you think you are crazy? i have come across my fair share of crazy people in my short life so far and none of them... i repeat... none of them has ever said that they were crazy... including the guy who called me 'major badar' and only talked to me and no one else... i still feel sorry for him till today... i'd like to meet him again some day... maybe when he is out of jail...
so the thing is... here we have people whom i think are perfectly normal... or at least normal-looking calling themselves crazy... imagine these people living in medieval times... to admit insanity would be to set a date with the pyre... really... some time back, it would have been an insult to call a person crazy... but now... people willingly deem themselves "fit-for-the-shrink"... madness i tell you... is it really that bad living in the world today so much that people think that they are crazy? come on... it isn't all that bad isn't it? there is still some good left... pick a sport, get a hobby, gratify yourselves... anything to stop you from going crazy...
many who know me would probably think that i am crazy... but seriously... i am not... i can be the most un-crazy person... it's a facade i put up to ease the boredom of the people around me... it's an act... and to those who like it... thank you... now pay me!